I want to be a dulsional teen

Being a responsible and respectful teenager with strict yet decently lenient, married parents has its benefits.
But I can't help but want a more criminal/menacing/spiteful life.
I want to be the girl that is friends with everyone.
Even being the girl that everyone talks shit about, yet everyone acts as if I'm their best friend, would be satisfying.
I want to be the drop dead gorgeous girl, that even the most female respecting boy wouldn't be able to help fantisising about.
I want to have a well known last name that will give me respect due to who my parents are.
I want to be the girl who even the most butch and muscular chick wouldn't even mess with.
I want to go to parties that get busted.
I want to smoke a joint and get so stoned out of my mind that a rock could be the most amazing thing in this world.
I want to get shitfaced drunk, puke my brains out, passout, and get fondled just so I can have something to regret in the morning.
I want to be at every raid, every field party and every crashed birthday party.
I want to stay out all night long and wake up on someone elses couch.
I want to experience a near death situation that will change my life.
I want to punch a hole in my wall out of anger and have to hide it with a poster.
I want to bitch out some girl that has been getting on my nerves.
I want my parents to understand that my job will be the death of me.
I want to be the screwed up teenager that ends up being one of the most successful kid in her graduating class.
I just want to be a screwed up, dulsional deliquent teenager.