I miss you

Words cant explain what you meant to me
I never told you that I loved you
I thought that you always knew
and now thats it too late
my heart is filled with guilt
and so much grief
I don't know what to do
I never knew I could miss someone so much as I miss you
I should have told you that I loved you
but I didn't because I thought you already knew
I hope you know that I cared
you meant so much to me, words cannot describe how much you changed my life
when I got the news that you were killed, a part of me died along with you
I know your in a better place
but I  wish you were still here with us
everyone misses you so much
Everyday our hearts break a little with so much pain
this family has one big broken heart
filled with empty memories
its just not the same here without you
you lived your days as if they were your last
I never thought your best friends birthday would be it
I miss you so much
I just hope you know
I have to smile so they cant see
that my heart is still filled with so much guilt and grief
I know I never told you, but I loved you and I always will.