bitter reality

I look back and i can not smile
What I felt was no where near juvenile
I did not want to walk away
By his side i wished to stay
Now so many want come for me
I keep looking because he and I were not meant to be
What happened was so so unfair
The love i had for him was oh so rare
When he walks by my heart still skips a beat
When he looks at her i want to retreat
My heart burns with agony when reality sinks in
I know what was can never be again
I wish somehow i could change time
I know i cant so i guess i should stop crying
What is done is done but i still love him
It seems now my heart is rather dim
To see him now is misery you see
Because i realize he no longer loves me
I want to stop dreaming of his kiss
But i know he is the one i truly miss
Love now seems so painful and bitter
But my heart is no quitter