Sacrifice

Don't mistake me for the aching begger inviting humiliation and rejection
or the screaming baby chasing blue fairies in dark corners.

I'm the one up on the building, ten miles west of left field on the sunless side of Titan.

I fell asleep in a raging storm and woke up in the darkest silence, a stone block in each hand.

I know there are no tree stars in the great beyond.  No one is coming.

I bit down hard when the strap cut into my back, swallowed my tears every time she turned away.  I took advantage of his liquor before he hammered holes in my soul.

Spun a web of lies to catch the world.  When my head was cracked and dipped in death I embraced obliteration. 

Up on the building, I'm still here because I haven't jumped yet.