I dig into my flesh,
With this razor blade,
Cutting these scars,
That will never fade,
A reminder of emotion,
A symbol of the pain,
That rushes inside of me,
That's driving me insane,
I don't know if I can deal,
With the rest of my life,
All my family hate me,
So I resort to the knife,
My mum is depressed,
Just screams and bangs the walls,
My father is dead,
He's not here at all,
My brother - with my dad,
At least they're having fun,
My baby brother - well he's ok,
Just he's my step dad's son...
My step dad thinks it's his duty,
To ruin my life,
He slams his puches at me,
Drives me to the knife,
He punctures my balloon,
My baloon of hope,
And sends me whizzing down and down,
I don't know if I can cope,
He locks me in the shed,
Shutting me from the light,
He says it's what I deserve,
He keeps me there all night,
I cry for my daddy,
Every single day,
And for my darling brother,
Who had a lot to say,
My heart is raw from crying,
It can cry no more,
It just rasps its breath,
Until it's too soar,
That's all it beats for...
it beat to die,
it beats slower and slower,
Until living's a lie,
All I want is two people,
The best two people in the world,
The only people who can save me,
For in my corner I'm curled...
With the knife in my hand,
Thinking about my step dad...
He just makes me want them...
so so bad,
So that's why my wrists are red,
That's why my wrists are soar,
That's why I am a cutter,
That's why I want more.
Author notes
Sorry it's not very poetical...i just wanted to write it down.
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its so sad, but its very deep. its a great poem. i can fell everything. the wanting and the emotion.
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Great expression...
Wow, I can feel every dark emotion and every yearning emotion from this poem. Your simple words have the greatest impact, you seem to say exactly what you want to say, express exactly what you want to express.
"Until living's a lie," - This is a great line. Sometimes I feel as though I live to lie...
I truly enjoyed relating to your poem. It's nice to know that there are people out there that experience the same feelings and emotions, that we really aren't all alone.
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so much pain, suffering, and need... its very good, yet, its so very sad.
Care XD <3
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wow.. a deep reflection on ur youth =]
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wow this is deep. lots of emotion. i like it. but im sorry you have to go through this. =[
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I like it. Poetry is a very good way to let emotions out... and this seems to have a lot of emotion in it, very heart felt.
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