"This is a new and exciting part of your life!"
What bullshit...
"Your life will change forever!"
They weren't kidding.
"What you do from now on will dictate the rest of your life!"
What if I’m trying to but parents try to control me still?
I thought being a high school graduate would be cool.
I never thought in my fucking dreams it would be like this;
I'm still being governed by my parents.
I can't break free from them.
I had more freedom in high school than I do now!
Job hunting on a daily basis,
It’s KILLING my soul!
Constantly harassed about school,
I'LL GET TO IT IN MY OWN DAMN TIME!
GOD FUCKING DAMN WOMAN, STEP OFF!!
DON'T even try to hand me that wanted ad,
I won't even bother looking at it.
I could give a shit less about looking for a job now,
You won't let the subject drop!
Give it a rest for the love of the gods!
I'M ONLY ONE FUCKING PERSON!!
You always on me about finding a job,
I just one now TO GET AWAY FROM YOU!
I do have other interest than looking for a job!
I ONCE WAS AN ARTIST AND A POET TOO!
Now all I am to you is a burden; then if so PLEASE leave me be.
You’re getting upset at me for nothing,
It’s not my fault for not having a job.
Take it up with the people that won't hire me,
It was their freaking choice!
I'm not the one to be yelling at!
I NEVER WANTED TO BE BORN IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!
This is making me want to start cutting all over again,
What you’re doing to me isn't healthy for me.
You ALWAYS have your nose stuck in my business,
STOP IT NOW! JUST STOP IT!
I'm 18 years old, an ADULT!
CUT THE DAMN CORD LADY, AND I'LL BE ON MY WAY!
You think your bonding with me by shoving a newspaper in my face?!
You’re driving me miles and miles away,
In fact we aren't even in the same galaxy anymore.
Once you mention the word "jobs" I’m already in my own world,
I’m so fucking sick of being nagged about something I CAN'T control.
LISTEN MOTHER,
I AM ONLY 18 YEARS OLD,
I AM A POET AND AN ARTIST,
I WILL FIND A JOB WHEN OTHERS DECIDE!
SO STEP THE FUCK OFF FROM ME,
And for the love of the fucking gods
Just leave me be!
Author notes
The poem right now basically sums up my life... why? because my mom is doing exactly what the poem says...
i'm just so sick of hearing about jobs its stressing me out and affecting my health now. my artwork and poems have suffered because of it.
what do you think?
Comments
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I can feel the anger and irritation in your words. A strong and powerful piece. Parents can nag, but deep down they have your best interests at heart, we don't always get it right
Excellent poem.
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one step at a time...
one breath at a time...sometimes we write to EXHALE...
all the gloom and dark out of us.
And you certainly accomplished that with this write!
remember...one step at a time, lest you find yourself
twisted in a leap.
let her know in a kinder way...i need verbal support
as jobs are competetive and hard to find right now,
and plus i'm feeling a little...apprehensive.
go slow...tell them gently how to best support you,
and don't think for one moment that they won't know
if you are using it as a stalling excuse to not confront
your apprehensive-ness with doing nothing at all.
You are a bold poetess...take charge!
show them how bold you truly are..by doing it your
way, and getting it accomplished!
make a list, and followup twice!
jobs are very competetive out there, you have
to seek them out! good luck...take charge!
hang in there!
ears/Seattle
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Wow I could feel all your anguish and pain. Have you tried to talk to her and let her know how she is making you feel? I know that sometimes parents can be so demanding and don't take the time to listen to their children. My mom was the same way with me very demanding and pushy, I never had the courage to speak up and let her know what was on my mind. When I got older I did and she asked why I did not speak up then although it may not have helped then either. But I guess I will never know because I never did. I will be praying for you have faith in yourself. The job market is tough right now I know my husband want't to find another job tired of the one he has been in for almost 10 years but it is hard right now with the economy the way it is. I wish you all the luck in whatever you chose to do.
Theresa
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