Lately

I miss her...
she's beautiful
she's perfect
I need her
She was my life
She loves him though
I was gunna do everything with her
November 11th,
July 11th,
June 23rd,
June 16th,
December 18th,
so many dates
that meant something
yet
mean nothing at all.

July 11th
started it all
December 18th,
ended us
June 16th killed us.

If I can't have her as my
love
why can't I have her as my
friend?!
How can two people
who loved her each
so much
end up hating each other
the very next day?
How can two people
hate each other
so much
become best friends
over a guy?
I can't sleep,
she means the world to me
her number
etched in my brain
her smile
etched in my brain
her voice
washed away too quickly
She held me
when the affair was there.

I held her
when the affair was there.

We held each other,
when the night was there.

I miss her
and my life
is hell without her.

Lately,
I don't want anyone
but her.

Why can't she
get past my
sexuality
and see what she did
when we first met
August 14, 1999
Everyone knows
who I'm talking about
but does anyone have the answers?
I've lost her
and I just want my
Kailee back