Calling

I know my calling now.
It was always deep within me.
Hidden away,
because of socials norm's.
I tried good,
hell I even tried pretty,
but it just never felt right,
it got me nowhere.
So I say now,
paint it black,
paint it blood red.
Make me dark,
I am an outsider,
simply in sheep's clothing.
Now is my time to shine,
here I go,
now I know my calling.

Author notes

Okay....so I've always had a morbid interest in the "dark" side. To what I refer top? That whole gothic look and culture. Its something I've always admired but was basically prohibited from doing due to cultural background. Having just attended a party and the theme being a goth I feel as if I were in my own skin. Lips painted like blood, black nail polish and eyes....I like it. I think I might keep the look....I don't know...its going to be hard road. What do you think? Or is it just a phase?