Lust and Love

Things aren't what they seem to be,
Lamenting over my fantasy,
The corrupt dream of you and me,
Something I never got over.

And somehow I'm not good enough,
Cursed and scarred by your touch,
Burning flesh, rotting teeth, and such,
This is what you have done to me.

But you continue not to care,
Clothes are in the way, hardly to wear,
My heart is bursting, likely to tear,
As you use me over and over.

If I ever see you again I'll tell you No,
Strike you hard with one swift blow,
I should have done this long ago,
The bad outweighs the good.

Misery, this mistake has caused me,
Stuck in the life I worked so hard to flee,
Will my true love ever forgive, c'est la vie?
I can't seem to pull myself together.

My love is real, my feelings pure,
I wish I wasn't so insecure,
You've never entranced me by some sick lure,
The way that he did, long ago.

I promise to make it up to you,
I will be faithful, and I'll stay true,
The beating of my heart my only clue,
You are my one and only.

Lust gets buried in the past,
Because this is real and it can last,
It won't be easy, it won't be fast,
I made a mistake, but I'm only human.

I forgive myself.
I forgive myself.
I will write those precious words until they are real.
Will you forgive me?
Will you forgive me?
I know you said that you could...

So until that day I'll cry with you,
I'll burn, and die, and lie for you,
I'll absorb all of the pain for you,
While we pick up the pieces together.

I love you.
I love you.
I love you.