I'll Never Forget That First Day Of May...

I'll never forget that first day of May.
When I told you to pack up and get out of my way.
How did I finally realize we just needed to be apart?
The day you picked me up from the airport coming home to you and the kids I was so happy.
As usual tired.From a 72 hour trip for my cousin's wedding.
48 of those long hours on planes.
I was so happy to be returning to my family.

Only to be hurt and disappointed by you yet again yelling and cursing at me.
Calling me every name other then my own.
Looking at our daughters crying and upset faces through the mirror.
Knowing what I must do and the pain it will cause us all.
So sad that I realized I should have done this so long ago.

The wounds we caused our children will haunt me forever.
Trying so hard to make them heal.
Hoping you realize what we have done.
Only to be slapped in the face by how selfish you are.
Wondering to yourself why our oldest doesn't want much to do with you.

Not wanting to take the blame yourself for the part you have done.
Always needing to blame me for it all.
Never thinking that I praise you as a father to all who will listen.
Even when I tend to embellish the truth.
So my girls can never say Mommy kept Daddy away.

All those lonely nights we spent alone because your ass would rather be in the streets.
Instead of with your family.
Getting locked up over stupid shit.
Not because your babies were hungry.
So sad to be true it was due to you.
You wanted more the what we needed.
Always worried what the next man had.
to bad your still the same way.

The reason I have such a big smile on my face and joy in my heart.
Is now your the next woman's problem.
No longer my burden.

I will always remember that first day in May.
When I finally came to my senses.
I told you it was over.
And get the hell out of my way!