My memories!!! My choise!!! My reality!!!

I'm living a differant life,
A painful life,
A scaring life,
But just when all hope is lost,
No-one streaches out there hand to me,
Why?
Do i repulse you?
Do i annoy you?
Do i hurt you?
My feeble little body im a place so big,
My corpse amumg the dead,
My life drained compleatly,
Where is the light?
Where are you?
Where have you gone?
Why did you go?
You were there all the time,
But suddenly dissapeared into a nothingness,
The End,
It seems close,
But the end is a new beginning,
A new light,
My old light,
My savehaven,
Where you are,
Where you passed to,
Where you dwell,
I want to be there,
Where you live,
Guts it takes,
Or stupidity?
Which do i pick?

I pick you,
To talk to you,
One last time,
One last millisecond,
My question still un-awnswered,
To pick,
So hard,
If i dont make a choise,
It wil make it for me,
Either way i will eventually see you,
My 12 year old body will stay with you,
Always,
Where ever you are,
Ill be there to,
Youll be waiting and so will i,

What your body shakes out what your mind cant handle,
I repeat your words,
Every day,
For the rest of my life,
I will see you in a day or 80 years,
It doen't matter,
I will still see you,
Eventually,
Because your my selfish romance,