My Insane Mind

I have a record in my mind…
It keeps growing in time
Make it stop
This timer that ticks
Tick, tock, tick, tock
It never seems to quit!
Make this clock
Stop its tracks

Make it stop
This record keeping
The dreams that swarm
They’re coming true!
Each night there’s even more
For reality to consume

I’m growing tired
Of all these things
My mind is wandering
Yet again

Make it stop
This infection running through
My veins and heart
It’s going back
To the brain
Sending signals
To everything

This pain growing
More and more
The dreams that come true
Are nothing but nightmares
Make them stop
Make the fakes come real

I want a world that I can love
And never hate
Because of the nightmares
Filling the reality
Surrounding everything I loved

The darkness is shrouding
All of my past
It’s taking over the present
And soon the future to come

My mind is swirling
With ways to kill
Maybe tomorrow
Maybe tonight

And I keep telling myself
It’ll all be over
Once I have
Everything I ever wanted
But even that is proving
To be a futile waste
A pitiful waste
Of energy

This fucking mess
That’s running through
Causing misery
Deserting mindless things

I can’t understand
What I am becoming
Because this all keeps flooding
Like Noah’s Ark
Is about to begin
Yet again

This sickness is getting noticeable
It’s killing me more than death itself
I honestly don’t know what to say
Except goodbye to the cruel world
My lips want poison
I’m begging to be sacrificial
Anything that makes my lifespan
Shorten even quicker

Yes I’m suicidal
How the fuck could you not know?
Was it the happiness I brought
Into your sorry fucking lives?
It totally went there
Hell, I’ve just begun
Now you’ll never hear me stop
Unless I slice your throat

Somewhere that slices easy
Diva was inspirational, I tell you
Her words are making it easier
To kill your damn ass
Now the fun has begun
As I am running from murder
Soon more counts against me
Though the world may never know
These sins inside my mind
Like wound-up melodies
Sing to me like a music box
To a sweet little girl
Their song caressing my heart
Even my thoughts and dreams

I swear I think I loved killing
Someone so stupid as you