I.
Skelaxin. Tramadol. Prednisone and Effexor.
I take one each and every time I think of you.
I spent the whole night wide awake because of
the 445 milligrams I took of you.
II.
You asked if I was alone and, stupidly,
I said 'yes.' You demanded that I take
off my jeans [I fell into submission.]
You told me that my bruised body reminded
you of a canvas- and you were ready to
create 'art.'
III.
1:30am. I'm sitting here in my room-
alone.
You call and tell me to take off my
bra. The pink satin slowly fell to
the dark floor as my body trembled
in fear. You told me to moan like
I meant it- so I did.
[I meant for you to stop.]
IV.
Every time I do this I degrade
myself. I become your sex doll;;
I live to please you and I don't
feel anything- no love, comfort,
attachment, or even pain. I am
the toy you put back into your
toy box when you're done and play
with me only when you want to
be amused. Unfortunately for me darling;
toys last forever.
Author notes
Toys last forever; together or in pieces.
This sucks and I don't have anything else to say.
Find me. Fuck Me. Forget me.
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Holy crap...the author's notes and the poem itself are shocking and sobering. To feel so used...that your only purpose is to be played with...I feel for you. You DO have value, you ARE a treasure. I know for a fact that the One who made you cherishes you as a unique, beautiful part of His creation. I am so sorry you have been mistreated in this way...
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stanza ii = WOWWW
i love the [i meant for you to stop] line
its so gaah i cant think of the word haha
btu i love that stanza
and the fourth stanza was absolutely brilliant
'Unfortunately for me darling;
toys last forever.'
sooo true & sad
that stanza was filled with emotion and i felt your pain
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Whoa! Really true for a lot of women, I think...they feel as you do/did. I hope things are better for you. My heart broke with "I become your sex doll;;
I live to please you and I don't
feel anything- no love, comfort,
attachment, or even pain. I am
the toy you put back into your
toy box when you're done and play
with me only when you want to
be amused." Great truth!!!!!
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heartbreaking
This has happened to so many of us.
So many of us it hurts and it kills and we just want to get out but we can't.
Eventually you will be able to walk away and that will hurt. But it will happen and in the end it will be better for you.
I'm here if you need help.
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Sweetheart, you shouldn’t have let it get so far. I know you know that. You’re way too smart to be doing something so belittling. Bruises aren’t suppose to be artwork and his guy should have never touched you.
You are making it too easy for me to want to kill this guy.
You are no toy! Even if you were, you wouldn’t be his because someone who actually loved you would steal you away and keep you safe <3
I'll find you. I'll fuck you ;] But there is no way that I'd ever forget you! -
i like this
I am
the toy you put back into your
toy box when you're done and play
with me only when you want to
be amused. Unfortunately for me darling;
toys last forever.
favourite bit
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Oh so intriguing
I don't know what to say except maybe I liked the ideas, the blunt sensual thoughts. And the thought of being a sex doll
hmmmm... yeah... lol... I liked that.
It doesn't suck one bit... I liked it cause it intrigued me. I swear it won't anymore.
blessed be
♥ Blanche
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i love you.
fuck this guy, i'm gonna come take off his balls
and shove them up his vagina
thank you bye.
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I can definately relate to this...that's how it felt with steven when I was 14 and he asked me to do things... I was so afraid of him, yet in awe and I just didn't know what to do, it's very raw emotions. btw, tramadol is shyt, I hate it...it gives me mini fits. x
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ya don't ever let him control u like that please he doesn't deserve u and u don't disereve that. * send hug* hope my hug helps u.
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*tears* im sorry. i really hope he stops.
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UGH. I hate that kid. I swear.
And this is one of your most raw, honest pieces in my opinion. Wonderful job. Don't ever let him do that to you again, kay? I love you ♥
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very interesting. wow. its good but I am not sure what to say. powerful.
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This so doesn’t suck! My junk sucks!!!
This is heart-breaking and eye-opening all at the same time
I’m sorry that you found yourself in this situation though
It is a horrible one to be in, I know.
Still, I find it amaze that you could find away to express how you are feeling
Your emotions spill out and like I said before, it is heart-breaking to know this is how you feel but it is also eye-opening to other people. Letting them know that things like this actual happen.
My favorite stanza would have to be
” IV.
Every time I do this I degrade
myself. I become your sex doll;;
I live to please you and I don't
feel anything- no love, comfort,
attachment, or even pain. I am
the toy you put back into your
toy box when you're done and play
with me only when you want to
be amused. Unfortunately for me darling;
toys last forever.”
Mostly because of the line
” Unfortunately for me darling; toys last forever.”
Keep up the terrific work honey-bunny!
[and try to be the doll [toy] that got away]
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Firstly, I hope that this isn't personal. I'm sorry if it is, but even so, it's a lovely poem. I have never been a fan of dirty-pretty, but this is the first poem written in that style that has ever made me feel something, even if it is pain.
Anyway, I'm sorry you're feeling this way. Well done, and I hope things look up for you soon.
♥
Laura x
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Ah, honey, I hope everything is okay and that this is just creative art and nothing real. If it ins't creative then I want you to spill your guts too me because no one should ever ever make you feel this way!
Stiil
Weither it be real or it be fake
It is a fantastic write =]
I esspecailly like this:
"II.
You asked if I was alone and, stupidly,
I said 'yes.' You demanded that I take
off my jeans [I fell into submission.]
You told me that my bruised body reminded
you of a canvas- and you were ready to
create 'art.'"
But I find that part four holds the most emotion
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Interesting...
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"you of a canvas- and you were ready to
create 'art.'"
This reminds me of stuff I wrote;
Is this true?
I feel so bad.
We should talk on the phone one day. (:
It would make life easier. Haha.
Awe, I hope you're okay. I'm sorry I've been so busy. D:
GET A MYSPACE.
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oh sweetheart.
i know we haven't been talking like i wish we were, but just know i am here for you.
ily bby.
and this mos def doesn't suck.
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ily too baby.
♥
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hmm? interesting?
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it doesnt suck so dont put yourself down hunnie;
and.. i've been there. it seems pathetic that we let ourselves go through something like this but.. at the time we dont realize it.
trust me.. it wont be long before you just want to hang up.
♥
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