last letter

With tears that spill
And a heart that aches
I sit here and wonder
Are you reading it yet

In my stark white room
On a hospital bed
I wait and remember
Each word in my head



Dear john,
its me  Susan...
I know this might be to late
I'm sorry that I hurt you
So sorry in every way
I  don't know if you can forgive me
Or  forgiveness I deserve
After the way I treated you
And all the hurt I caused

I know it's been a year now
Since I walked away
Both our lives are different
this I know is true
You've problem moved on now
And found somebody else
Are happy and  don't need this
If  that's true stop reading now

I  don't hold any ill will
And I hope that you  don't too
I just need to say sorry
For all the hurt that I gave you
To tell you all that I said
The  cruel words left between
Not a one did I mean
Not a single one was true

Dear john,
please know I loved you
That to me you were my world
I know I never said the words
So I'm doing it right now
For me there are no  excuses
Explanations for what I did
What I did I can't take back
The past you can't relive

Goodbye john I do still love you
Thank you for  loving me
For letting me  glimpse a life with you
That once I could have lived
Sweet john each day I miss you
Know you touched my heart
And one day we'll meet again
Hopefully back at the start



Did I do the right thing
I still can't be sure
Will it make any differences
Any differences at all

My eyes once more filling
I jump out of bed
Walk across the small room
To the window instead

Crying and hurting
I look down below
Watching the people
As they come and go

Was one of them you
Have I made a mistake
Sending you that letter
That wouldn't change my fate