Until The End

I don't like you -
The way you won't leave my head;
The memories inside my heart
The memories inside my head.

There are five scars; five men,
1st is movement, 2nd abuse, 3rd Lies
and 4th excuse. 5th special, ending in threat.
Threat was deepest, cried the most blood, shed
the most tears, created the most fears.

Dreams are haunted
Love twisted and perverted
Yet the hole left in my chest
Was unfilled by the rest.

I have nothing to give,
Nothing to loose;
Although what is left -
Is numb at best.

I don't need to smile,
I want to rest awhile;
For there is no escape
From lady fate.

Do you remember? Can you help?
I've lost my heart and myself;
Reality is hard to live for,
So there is fantasy instead.

She takes the lies and the false stories,
To be part of the world I breathe in;
I'll take the pills and the pain -
That's all thats left of glory.

I could have left,
But something made me stay;
Perhaps it was the joy of
Getting caught in the rain.

The voices said 'die'
My friends said try;
Who do I follow when my
head and heart can't decide?

I'll linger now,
Until the end;
The end of the ballad
Of a life needing mend.