i hear the tick tock tick tock
of the grandfather clock
at the end of the hall
my depression i try to forestall
all my emotions left bare
i fell the swish of the air
as my fan goes around and around
my fan makes the click clack sound
i try to get comfortable
never able to get uncomfortable
as i attempt to sleep
cant help but weep
no pillow can take away the pain
your memories with me remain
i will always be your retard
it just makes me cry harder
thinking about the night before
you went off to that foreign war
the last time you held me
the last time i was able to, me, be
with you my friends say i glow
you didnt want to let go
and neither did i
neither one wanted to say goodbye
silently i weep
crying myself to sleep
as the loneliness hits
my love for you is admitted
as a part of me died yesterday
i wish you could of stayed
when i saw you get onto the bus
boy did i want to cuss
that bus took you so far a way
i tell myself you would of stayed
if the choice you would of had
when you return i will be so glad
i know im just being selfish
but i dont want to be unselfish
i know they need you more
you are a soldier hardcore
to fight so we could be free
i too was once an enlistee
i wish you i could reach
over there at "datona beach"
as your friend called it
i dont think the name quite fits
over there in iraq
boy i wish you were back
my phone begins to ring
Bring! Bring! Bring!
my heart races
my soul unlaces
as i realise its not him anymore
i wish everything was as before
we wont be walking the mall's
wont be getting any calls
or text messages every day
i wish you werent so far away
my love to you i wish to convey
but i will be carrying my phone anyway
on the off chance that it might be him
when im looking grim
when i cry on the phone for being free
so done make fun of me
cause i panic when i cant find my phone
when im feeling so alone
for no reason i sometimes cry
my loneliness i dont deny
to my soldier my heart i bestow
because you just dont know
what its like to watch the one you love
whose as special as the one above
walk out of your life
in the back protrudes a knife
not knowing if he will walk
back or not, he is my rock
Honorable mention
Adding your comment:
9 mnths and he left me..but i am dating a marine now! 
so i guess still the same thing
