I hold back bitter tears
As you tell me about her
I pretend to be happy for you
A smile is painted across my face
Your so happy so I must be too
Alas, if only this were the truth
Instead of happiness for you
I feel a great fiery pit of jealousy
How many sleepless nights spent thinking about you?
How many useless tears cried at night over you?
How much pain I endured being around you?
How much time have I spent waiting for ?
Way too much to lose you to her
To have her be the one to love you
And receive your love in return
Unknowingly you are beating me to death
With every word about her
If you knew
No doubt you'd laugh
You and me
Could never happen
Even if you knew
But your clueless
Clueless to the fact
All I want to do is reach out
And touch your perfect face
Crawl into your arms
And stay there forever
The image of you and her
Shatter my heart
Over and over
Being here with you
Listening to you
Talk about her
Love shining in your eyes
Kills me
But not being with you
Is far worse
The envy burns me inside
Singes my heart
Yet it still manages to love you
Broken
Hurt
Loving you
Hating you
Loving you
Hating her
All intertwined within one
Envious Heart
Author notes
option 5, yes, my friends, this is me admitting I am INSANELY jealous over you-know-who doing you-know-what. And if you don't know then your not supposed to. Denial period is over, what's next?
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Comments
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you know who always makes me think of harry potter lol, can't help myself.
anyway, this is a terrible thing to feel...I know although my ex really buggared me up, the fact he's close to another girl rips me apart and if my most recent ex, of only about 3 weeks ago dated someone else, I'd hate all in life.
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I love this! It's always good to confront yourself. I've gotten to the point where I just straight up tell myself I'm jealous when I am!
-Faded
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