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[ do you know what it feels like ]

do you know what it feels like
to have the knowledge
that you and no one else
killed the thing that you
sheltered and protected
the one thing
that brought you joy

the one thing

you really loved.
just crushed it like
it didn't have the right to feel or to live...


now I have no home on this cold earth to go to
I seperated myself permanently from my family

guess I'll have to build my place again as someone new
but then I tore myself away from the one I love
with naught but the belief I did the right thing
but oh can you see, as I
the blood spilt upon the floor?

I know I truly did crush
that wonderful person

I really held dear
it was like twisting a knife
into my very own soul
but only because,
it was the right thing.
I have to follow what God tells me to do
no matter what the consequences are
I hope everyone will understand
why I had to do it
it was so hard
but it was a surprisingly, simple choice
I know I hurt him more than anyone has ever done
the pain caused is by my own hands, my own words
I can't even stand to look myself in the face
knowing what I've caused...

but I believe what I did was right
so I won't regret it, I can't.

but oh can you see, as I
the blood upon my hands?
it refuses to wash away
never leaving my thoughts quite at peace
but no I can't be sorry
for I believe that telling the truth
was the right thing to do

I just had to end it because... 

I need to find myself
and my place with God
before I can ever look upon anyone for me...
I know my heart still aches for you
the one person I've truly loved
I'm honestly sorry for the pain you've suffered
I can see all too clearly
the blood spilt upon the floor

 

Author notes

*sigh* yeah i know i know. i just can't write anymore. i just feel too numb. im too tired to fix it and make it good..
oh btw, if you say sorry, i just have to tell you i really appreciate it and all but please dont, if you even think about it. if you give me pity ill start feeling sorry for myself and theres no reason for it. theres way more people out there with bigger problems and pain.

oh and to tell you honestly, I can't do what your family did either. not to judge but I don't believe that's right at all. no where i have read does it say i can do that. well i just have to follow what I believe and not take their example. im sorry if that got your hopes up...

don't be nice, please

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Comments

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  • I-hope-im-not-alone
    August 25

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    its realy hard not to be nice.its a good poem with lots of emotion but it seems so out of character for you. are you ok?


  • The Imperfection
    June 17
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    A few keys on the keyboard are weak and frail...but weaved together like this, the power takes the breath and gives inspiration...sorrowful inspiration, but inspiration nonetheless. Amazing...how did you do it? Captivating. Keep writing, I really enjoyed this!


  • pancake
    June 16

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    you're good at the long ones - thought it isnt that long. really good. and also i cant not be nice! i hope your ok hunni. that was a sad poem but stunning all the same.


  • Lovebecomesus
    June 8
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    Good write keep it up! Don't know what else to say lol!

  • ERbby silver member
    June 7

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    babe just fyi![ily]
    you did a great job with laying everything out in this poem it was hard to read im not going to lie but only cuz i love and care for you much and to know your feeling like this sucks mucho. but as everyone else and me we are all here for you doll no matter what i know i turned to you a few times and well i love you keep up the good work and stay strong!

    xoxox

    endless

  • Converse Queen
    June 7

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    Wow... this is a really good poem. Yet it makes my soul entirely sad. Why didn't you ever talk to me about things like this? You know I'm here for you always. [[gives you my shoulder to cry on]] You'll always have a special place in my heart, just as does all my friends. I love you! Know that. Know that I'm always here if you ever need me. Don't be afraid to ask.
    Koda

  • XNevermindX
    June 7
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    Hmmmm, made me sad, and all i can say is i am here to talk, you know that.

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