Kiss today goodbye...

I've been in  a deep process of thought
for quite a long time
so many thoughts have gone through my head
some of  curious  wonder
and others of dread

I thought we were fighting this whole time
but really it was something going on in
the back of my mind
my mind was throwing the idea around
the memories of last summer
would be lost for both of  us
throught the distance our friendship had surpassed

I was afraid of letting go
because  though four months came and went so quickly
your friendship had  an impact  on me
one  I don't think you realize.
I thought  that letting go meant
forgetting each laugh and conversation
and getting yelled at by Nancy's crazy neighbor
on the fourth of July

I was naive in the way  I acted
in being blocked from facebook
I should of realized that you were moving on
and I should move on too
but... you know how everything played out
and that's why we haven't spoken since  November

(Sometimes  I  wonder if all the apologizing  I have done in the past couple months will ever amount to forgiveness of some sort)
Kiss today goodbye
the sweetness and the sorrow
wish me luck the same to you
just don't forget me
when  you are famous someday

Is it stupid to fear
that you've  forgotten me?
that's what i've feared the most all along.
I hope being forgotten is not the case at hand here.

I hope our paths again  cross
and that when and if they do
our friendship will still be the
same as it was last summer
only stronger  because of the distance it has surpassed
over time
that we'll have  much to laugh about
and that some of those laughs will include
our  memories from the Barn.

  I miss you Will.  I hope you haven't forgotten about me.