Ever Present

You say you are in love
But I think you are just infatuated with the ever present curves of my body

Your eyes travel here and there
And beg for a little more skin
Hike up the skirt
Pull down the shirt
Why don’t you strip it all off
Just this one time, just for me

Lost in this world
Where sex is highly available and valued
But at the same time discarded and frowned upon

Come a little closer
I’ll make you happy
Your body is like a fairytale
But haven’t you heard those don’t exist

A dream come true you say
But do you always throw away your dreams?
Especially when they don’t get down and dirty for you?

But you still beg
I promise this will be the last time
I won’t tell
Let me touch you just this once
Help me someone I’m in hell

Kiss kiss
Nudge nudge
Leads to
Grope and tug

Reality is a bitch and is holding a grudge over me
I can’t seem to unravel myself from this world
Sometimes I think I must show my insecurities and need for human contact
It must show in my eyes and be interpreted into lust

Cuz you can’t seem to see past ever present curves and seemingly inviting smile

When will I meet a guy who holds me close when I am scared?
Who says
If you don’t want to, you don’t have to
If you want to wait then that is what I want to
Ill be here even when I’m not here

Maybe if I believe in ever after
Maybe if I give up just a little more of myself
Why does it always come down to selling you soul to the devil?

Can you tell me?
I’m beautiful
I’m exactly what you want
Without just loving my ever present sexuality?