If Only Dad Had Loved Me

Just a few months old
I could hear them shouting loud
Curse words ringing in my ears
And fists flying through walls

Just a few years old
On my way to another visit
As required by the judge
I cry because I know yet again, he'll ignore me

Just a preteen in school
On the playground swing
I listen to the others talk
Of all the fun things mommies and daddies do with them

Just a rowdy teenager
Searching for her place
I cringe in disgust as I watch
A daddy play with his daughter in the park

Just a young woman now
Feeling as half of a whole
I long to know what my life would've been like
If only dad had loved me