Hidden Within

"How big of a lie could it possibly be.  One's own secret kept discreet.  But what happens next when every thing comes unfold.  When that lie is finally discovered and then told."

Concealed within me are my thoughts. Within those thoughts are my secrets kept locked up.  Can hide the truth through lies, but not matter what, it will never make things right.

Behind every smile and every glance, I told myself in the mirror to take a chance.

My thoughts pour like rain. I wonder if I reveal my secret, would things change?  Right now my conscience picks apart my brain. I'm about to break and likely to go insane.  I don't know how much more of this I can take.  I know keeping it from myself has already been a mistake.

With a single breath, I take the first step.  I open my mouth, slowly letting my secret come out.  I hoped for a quick response, but instead had received nothing, but silence.  I stood there shocked.  Probably wondering if I was hearing things or at least dreaming.  For it seemed at that moment my secret had no meaning.  Throughout the whole time, my eyes never did see.  I guess I didn't know how to look at me.

Taking a step back, I had refused to stand any longing in the awkwardness. I didn't lift my head, but instead I looked down.  Couldn't face the mirror, so instead I stared at the ground.  It was as if I had been imitating a dog, who knew they did something wrong.  Then I finally decided to speak.  I already new the words in which where about to leak.

I said to myself, "When riffles in the water subside and pass, an image is left to stare at."  From the corner of my eye, looking in the mirror I could see the disappointment drenched all over my face.  There I stood alone, ashamed, feeling like a disgrace.