One more day is all I ask for GOD.

Torn up love letters is all I have left…
A sobbing shell of a thing once referred to as a man.
I never new how much she cared.
Now the blood of our love is flowing in my hands.
All I have now is the memory of that night.
If only I hadn’t let her go, if only she hadn’t got behind that wheel, if only I hadn’t started that fight, if only I hadn’t crossed the line…
Those last words I uttered  “I hate you ”
I can never take them back.
Why aren’t you here with me now?
Why can’t I be with you?
Why couldn’t it have been me instead?
It’s all my fault.
Now you’re with him and nothings ever going to change.
I broke your heart and now your gone.
Not a day goes bye I don’t regret the things I did to hurt you.
All I ever wanted is for you to be happy.
Tearing you down dashing yours dreams knowing I should have let you go.
This terrible thing I have become a sickening grotesque monster.
The things I’ve done in this life make me sick.
To think I will live out the rest of my days alone because I can never have you at my side.
Gone forever more I took the life of the only girl I ever loved.
The self-hatred that flows through these veins like acid it eats away slowing killing me inside.
Dark are the thoughts that creep through this vile disturbed mind.
Hatred brews in that hallowed casket for those who are happy.
Greed posses my eyes driving me mad seeing those couples caress their lover’s hands.
Taking what they have for granted.
They will never understand the suffering to be endured in the pain caused by a corrupted heart.