To You

I didn’t lie to you.

I meant what I said when we were together
My love for you was unwritten, unspeakable, and perfect
You were an angel of beautiful cruelty that mesmerized me both body and soul

Please do not call me a liar broken18man
I tried explaining it to you so many times and all you would do is overreact and call me a deceiver

Just know that I did what I did for a reason
I had gotten my answer from the Son above
Through prayer and fasting
And don’t you dare say that I ended us because of some “feeling”
Because it’s not just a feeling
It’s the spirit of righteousness and trust that told me
I knew that us being together was not right

And you contradicted yourself when I was trying to decide what to do and you said that whatever I would choose you would understand and support me.
You didn’t do what you said you’d do

Once I told you no
You said you didn’t understand and accused me of lying to you.
No boy, I didn’t lie to you... I would never do that
I think that you thought I would never say no and when I did I caught you off guard
And I’m sorry for that
But I was only trying to do what was right
And I do apologize for my last words to you being so vulgar.

And even now that time has past between us,
You still probably don’t understand
And I wish you would try to
And forgive me

I did what I had to
And this I say to you

Farewell my first love
I hope that you will understand one day why I did what I did