Lights Out On A Rainy Night

I'm not staying here just to fill in the space,
I'm breaking the atmosphere by seeing your pretty face,
Not an astronaut but I hope it means anything to you,
I hope you know but I cannot say that this is untrue,

For whenever I'm with you I can be the outer space,
I can touch the constellations with your smiling face,
But I'm such a drifter and a bit more of a dreamer,
The act of letting you and me go is a curse forever,

I cannot say why and you can't understand,
I can't understand myself too I'm like an offhand,
There's happiness in the heart shaped doodles you drew,
When I don't say it doesn't mean that I don't want you,

But how cruel is fate when you have to go,
I should have bought a ticket but I said no,
I feel you deserve something so much better than me,
If it means not hurting you then it makes me happy,

The feeling is inches away from driving me cold,
And it will until I manage to finally get old,
You and me are just a story I don't dare say,
For it is a mystery why I'm not here with you today.