All That I Want

I wish I could cry,
I wish I were weak,
Instead I am cold,
The truth I no longer seek.

I'm tired of having only one emotion,
I'm tired of being so hollow,
All I ask is to feel once more,
Instead of having hardened remorse to swallow.

It's a never-ending struggle,
It's always lurking and haunting,
Masquerading the lies with a smile,
I wish it were the pain I was flaunting.

Wearing someone else's heart on my sleeve,
I've borrowed their soul,
Constantly worrying about their emotions,
Carrying the world on my shoulders has taken its toll.

All I want to do is cry,
I've grown sick from all the anger,
All I ask is for a few tears,
For my mind is in great danger.

I never thought I would miss this,
The feeling of being so frail,
I never thought I would long to feel this way,
Grasping for vulnerability... I'm in HELL.