Tragedy The Despair

My heart aches with the pain of this longing,
The desire to feel normal and breathing,
To get out of this judgment and torment.
Enduring all I have is beginning to take it's toll,
Sending me into despair and apathetic,
Feeling lost, never to be found.
Why do others take advantage?
Why am I just nothing, not a soul to be helped or heard?
The world is changing,
Bringing about the worst,
Falling into nothing but debts.
Trying to endure this pain,
Bringing about the sharp numbness,
Circulating about the bloodstream.
Flowing so swiftly and softly,
Gushing out when there’s a chance,
Can anyone hear my heartbeat?
I can't live a life like this,
I can't see who ever could,
Unless your all ready lost into the black hole.
Grabbing at the edge,
Trying to escape,
But the edge keeps splitting, cracking, and breaking off.
Falling ever so fast,
Ever so long,
The dark passage will soon last forever.