My habits are constant:
I write
I smoke
I drink
A regular nineteenth century poet,
Minus the opium.
My poems scream
About love and pain
But really, I only know one
Intimately.
I’ve never been in love,
I have decided.
But pain.
Ah, sweet, seductive pain I have
Known and cherished deeply.
Self inflicted, river red and
By another’s hand
in love and hate.
I say to my Mum
(and my Therapist)
nearly daily, that I will
kick tomorrow.
But I don’t really want to
And probably wont.
My writing keeps me sane,
My feet grounded but my head near the clouds.
My smoking creates hazy dreams,
Colors that I can only imagine and feelings I can only aspire to.
My drinking forces my emotional hand,
Causing the chasm that allows my writing.
Author notes
B e a n S i d h e
In a list
A contest entry
- Alphabet Options by fakeport.
1000 points, ended June 12, 2008, 14 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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very good...
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It's hard to quit, and if the motivation isn't there, it's probably not going to happen. Still, a great write and I thank you for entering my contest!
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Interestingly, I have been clean & sober since October 2008. The time was right and the motivation was there. Thanks for the comment!
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This poem I can only relate to too well. It is so hard to quit. You need to want to quit, you need to do it for yourself. It's near impossible to quit for a friend or a parent.
I adore the first stanza.
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I really like this. It's well written and I enjoyed the format of it. This sounds so personal and I can really feel the emotions in this. It's so hard to quit something (especially when you don't want to) and you've shown that here very well. Great job and thanks for entering.
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I really like how well the title fits the poem. The descriptiveness is wonderful and the story so true to many. Thanks for entering and good luck
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Your soul and your work are golden and rare my dear one.
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There are definite things i really like about this.
First
the title..very open to many interpretations.
Now this is thee best line I have read in a piece in a while...
..I have never been in love,
..I have decided.
Something in there that says maybe it was not recognized...or you didnt want it when it was there.
Now this seems the most interesting to me because there is a method to our madness....The first stanza is an ancient remedy for creators of any art...or most great art..
Altered states of emotion are always a granted licence that allows creativity to flow more freely.
Such is the reason on the readers end...to escape...
Bringing forth this essence in a piece is profound.
Its the elephant in the room and the big secret at the same time.
To take someone on a journey
you must go too.
Now I always state in my work...he ....she... them
and thats just me,
..many poet incorporate and write about themselves. When you personalize a poem...especially for this old Irishman...i want to give advise about your anguish instead of commenting on how you articulated it.
It is a blunder on my part....I have noticed that about myself when commenting on others.
With that said,
I would say this is your epiphany..
These are the things that drive creativity...and when you write, that's one thing you don't shun...by any means..you are driven to get to that place.
Great job.
blessings lassie,
LOWELL POE
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WOW! As always, you stun and amaze me with your impression of my work. I appreciate that you are able to look past my "bad" habits and see what they help me to produce. I would love to not be reliant on these outside influences but am well aware they they are threaded throughout my being & to cut them out of my life, would be akin to cutting off a limb. For most, this would be considered a strong liability, or fault, if you will. For me, it has kept me alive.
Thank you, so very much, for your words of wisdom, as a peer and a friend. They mean more to me than I could ever explain as acceptance is golden & rare.
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I can really relate to this. I write, I smoke, I don't drink much, but only because get my self destructive fun elsewhere. Love the third stanza. Thanks a lot for entering
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I'm so glad! It's rare for me to find a contest that my stuff is applicable for so thanks for being open minded!
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Are you fucking kidding me?!? This was AMAZING! I love how the first three stanzas all end abruptly and the last stanza flows slowly into its end. You're amazing, I wish I could pen like you.
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lol
Thanks, girlie! You're pretty amazing yourself. And I LOVE your comments. I command you to comment on each of my pieces of junk! HAHAH
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