I step out of the shower, wrapped in a towel
Walk into my bedroom ready to get dressed
As I walk by that antique mirror
I catch a glimpse of myself, two steps past
I think for a second and backtrack
Face to face, me and the mirror
Dark hair, tanned skin, still dripping water
I stand still staring at myself
Peering through my brown eyes, mysteriously
Watching…
Just…watching…
Stop; I drop my towel to the floor
Naked, judgmental
Look at me? Who am I?
I am a slut
As I look at the mirror, I picture
Nothing but people holding, hugging me
From behind
There are so many
I am a slut
I am 21 years old, have had 17 partners
Sex, both good and bad
Foreplay in the nastiest of places
Unprotected some, condom some
I don’t even know if I’m clean
How am I not a slut?
Pathetic…
I stand here with my head down
In front of the antique mirror
Slowly looking up at myself in disgust
My breasts are large; just looking
Turns me on, I want to touch them
My nipples are perky
I’ve had them sucked by 4 different
People in the last week
What is wrong with me?
My pussy is quivering, it is moist
I’m not even horny right now
An inherent nympho, a freak
A slut
I look forward in the mirror, at my right leg
As my juice drips down the inner thigh
I want to touch myself
I want to finger myself, I need a cock
Wait…NO I DON’T!
I’M SO ANGRY!
I put a hand on my clit
But my mind tells me no
I do it anyway
My pussy feels loose
No surprise
Men, women, sex toys
It doesn’t matter
I’ve had sex with them all
Even just this week
At the club in the washroom I sucked his cock
I didn’t even know his name
In the gym showers
I bit into her nipples and ate her out
She didn’t even speak English
In lecture, I put my hand in his pants
I think people even saw
He came all over my hand
He doesn’t even go to my school
At work, I snuck into the supply room
Two friends followed
He fucked my brains out, I fingered her
She smacked my ass and tongued my mouth
No condom, he came inside me
I didn’t care; I got fired at day’s end
Just all this week
My life is screwed up because I screw anything
I love it, I hate it
I’m a slut
The phone rings, I pick up still looking in the mirror
I say I will meet him in 5 minutes in the alley
My head is down
I continue to do this
I’m probably going to fuck him
He’s probably going to cum in my pussy
Or my mouth and I’ll swallow
When I hang up the phone I look up at the mirror
I am a slut
A single tear falls down my cheek
Only in the reflection in the antique mirror
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Comments
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Wow, just... Wow.
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I have mixed feelings about this one - the content certainly is controversial, but that's not the reason.
The end, while good, didn't quite fit with the rest of the poem, in my opinion, but perhaps it's just a matter of character. You convey this woman's disgust at herself well, which I didn't feel translated to tears or sadness. I've been here before, and at least for me, it was anger. Still, your character is intriguing.
Also, good use of spacing, characterisation (I'd like to see more of her and her reasons for being a little harlot, if she has any), but the prose was flat. Effective, though.
-Cristina
PS: Your colours look like bumblebees! -
oh....my.....god... that was freaking amazing...!!!
WOW. that was so full of emotion.. i felt every bit of it and i MEAN IT. wow. i can even relate >.> even though i'm 15 v.v
well ANYWAY dont want to talk about me....! amazing write! thank you so much for entering -
wow i so loved this. i loved very part about it. self esteem is sadly needed. but i have no room to talk. i am almost 300 pounds simply to satisfy my husband that no one will evere have sex with me as long as i am a fat gross pig unfortunatley not even him. loveed the write though.
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Okay...so impact and power..and emotion...
Not overly fond of the style...but it works....in this case....
Best wishes in the contest....
Write on!
*PEACE*
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Wow This is really Good !
It is so packed full of hunesty , most do not understand , but you are owning up to your self exactly how you really feel deep down inside of your self. Do not let no one down you for this for opening up the door , only set's you free. Even though it be that you are downing your self, you really went oh so deep. But now your free to accept yourself as you are and move on in your life ! Whom has the right to judge , surely not even me. I liked this part the most I believe: When I hang up the phone I look in the mirror, A single tear falls down my cheek, Only in the reflection in the antique mirror.~~~~~~Brenda Gae~~~~~~~ Do not hate your self for you are trying to find yourself. But I believe it all returns down to wanting and needing the attention, and this is your way of recieving it ! 3 Claps for Honesty !
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wow this is awesome i like how its erotic but has a dark side to it. keep up the good work -brook
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wow very honest and deep my dear...i am left with out words...
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wow... strong content....and yet I prefer the ending of it the body of it is not meant for me
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This was awesome! To face our true selves and be honest
just totally honest can be scary but also real. I would ahve liked to say something more or different but I am speechless!
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i loved it...it shows the need and the hunger...but also the self hatred and disgust verry nice...
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WOW
This is absolutely one of your best...the conflict between mind and body...the love/hate...
Amazing. I was spellbound. That's a perfect 10.
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