Maybe one day I'll know

So here I am thinking that dreams
are nothing but waking nightmares
when the decisions we make cause strife,
holding these balloons which signify what?

Well!!!  In my hands are the feelings that help me to see
how happy I am that we are in love,  but
I can also see that I am a coward. I am afraid,
What of, I don’t know, maybe it’s losing you, maybe it’s getting hurt.
All I know is I am so blue because you are so far away.
I wish that it was all black and white,
that way we would be together now and
not be thinking of ways to resolve this.

Now as I look around me I see an almost empty beach
This is my life, almost empty but never quite.
If I was to let go of these feelings
where would I be?
and
would they take me to you?

Only you and I will ever know
the meaning of the words
that are forming within my head and
only you and I will have the answer