Can We Do It????

Everything we had, seems to melt away. All those memories we had together, are going away. The way it looks, it may never come back. It just seems it's going to go so far, we won't be able to get it back. I think it's going to fade away through the distance, if we continue to let it. But I can't be what you want me to be. All I need is to be me and for you to know that's all you need to see. Everyday I'm with you, I have to try not to think of the pain you give me. All I can see is that, I'm not doing what you want me to do. Not liking what I like or like to do. It just seems you want me to be what I'm not. Like you what me to be perfect, but I can't. All the things you say over my words when I try to talk to you, makes me think you don't care. Like you never understand,  listen or at least try too. We are going to lose our love and when it's gone , it's going to be harder to get it back. I just can't be all that perfect for you. I'm sorry. But I need to follow what I want, not what you want. All you need to do is at least try to understand how and what I feel and what goes through me mind. Because it seems you try to go around it and get to a point that doesn't need to be said to me. Like telling me to change my thoughts and the way I feel towards everything. It's not that easy to do. It takes time, not just one second, the way you may think it does.  Every time I leave your house, I always write a letter in my head, of all the thing I didn't say to you. All that I have, is regrets on my shoulders. Regrets of the stuff I shouldn't or didn't said to you, knowing that it didn't help our problem. I know that I need to give effort in solving this fight. But you're making it harder and harder. I love you, but you're tarring me apart inside. And every time I get back together, you rip it again. But I know we can fight this.... but it's taking a little longer then I thought it would.