Two days was hard enough.

I wonder this weekend, how many times I've thought of you.
How many times did I pretend you were holding me when I attempted to fall asleep,
I wonder how many times I jumped to my phone just to feel my heart break when it was anyone but you,
How many times did I start to cry when I went to call you and then remembered that I couldn't.

I wonder this weekend, how many times you thought about me at night,
like how I've thought about you every minute.
I wonder if your arms feel empty without me.
I wonder if you lips are lonely just like mine.
I wonder if you cried like I did because you missed me.

I found out this weekend, that I depend on you.
I can't fall asleep without you saying goodnight.
I can't warm my hands unless your hands surround them.
I can't smile without seeing your smile.

Maybe it was just two days.
But it feels like a lifetime.

I need you all the time.
I breathe through your lungs.
And trying to breathe on my own hurts.

The thought of seeing you makes my heart beat so fast,
I'm surprised it doesnt burst.
The thought of kissing you drives the butterflies inside me so insane,
I'm surprised my stomach isnt bruised.

For two weeks I can't call you when I feel lonely.
For two weeks I can't run to you when I want to.
For two weeks I have to learn to breathe with my own lungs.
And I don't want to.

It hurts.