How could it come to this?

go ahead and take your best shot
cause I'm already there
already in the gutter
drowning my dispear

to think I once disired
something more nothing less
what a fool i've been.....
how could it come
to this?

I guess I a made a mistake
one too many along the way
and then I went
and hardend to the pain

I want to feel something
but i can not feel a thing
its like i'm all dried up
worth less than nothing

to think I once disried
something more nothing less
what a fool i've been
how could it come
to this?

ohhhhh time ticks
my seconds away
into minutes and hours and years
ohhhh and then i'll fade away
into all those unwinding years

did I ask for this mortality?
did I ask for this life?
do I have chance at all
to choose what I want from life?
or is it in another's hands
if I live or die?

I cannnot live like that...
I'd rather die.

and when the rain pours down on me
I'll close my eyes and say
I cannot live like that
I need the hope that I can choose
and have a choice in the life I'd lose
and have a voice as my soul cries out
and I will myself to stick around

but if its not true
and fee will's just a game
no thanks
I'd rather not play

to think I once disired
something more nothing less
oh what I fool I've been....
how could it........
come to.......
this?