Parents

Isn't it sad the way our parents try so hard?
They make a pretty baby-room to get you of on a good start
They search and get you into the best schools
As an attempt to make you responsibly, they create these stupid rules.

"Don't stay out too late and don't you drink too much
don't start smoking and don't do drugs"
Sex is something special so don't fuck some random guy
Get you priorities straight and always aim high

"don't do this and don't do that"
We alway's gave you everything, so why are you so sad?
Why won't you talk to us, do you shut us out?
You know no matter what you do, we would still be proud.

I was under the impression that my dad could protect me from everything i feared
He'd wake me up when i had nightmares, and the dark sky alway's cleared.
Now that i'm older i know it doesn't work like that
For too many things have happened, and those memories will last.

I've been in many dangerous situations
Butt i'll never tell you about it so stop the interrogations
Moments where i thought i was gonna die
Moments that turned into mornings, still looking up to the same endless sky.

The thing i fear isn't something you can see
Voices no one else can hear, no one else but me.
It's a blood thirsty killer that lives of my brain
Feeding on those moments, my memories of shame.

My fucked up periods of not eating and wrong guy's
All the thing i told you then, all those thing where lies
Lies told to spare you the pain and stop you from blaming yourself
You see, i did this in cope with other problems in order to keep my mental health.

But as it turned out, it didn't help one bit
We are now two years later and i still feel like shit
Once again the lies continue
A sad attempt to stop disappointing you.

The last thing i want is the reason for you to suffer
That's why i say these things, so you will not discover
That way you won't get hurt and you can sleep at night,
without feeling guilty, pretending i'm all-right

Can you see now why i think it's sad the way our parents try so hard?
I've fucked up everything despite of my good start
They have no say in this, can't change how i feel
I just hope that when i'm gone, they'll be able to deal.