i soiled misprinted avenues, the heartache stinging my throat and falling through what i too often say. a promise to be better, slipping up and lying to my toes. my fingers warbled beneath me, like marbled indentures of what i forgot to need.
[we were so broken]
tangled emptiness and impatience collapsed into my heart, and i, i knew what train tracks were for, even if you told me i didn't.
may nights found me waiting for something i wasn't sure of, i watched you for signs of betrayal and you knew how i was about food. well behaved and subtle, she stared at you from across the empty spaces.
i knew, i knew. my heart fell into the little crossword puzzles and buzzed up and down like cherry cola. chased finger paints and out door things. the bugs snuck up on us, biting marks on the back of our thighs let us know what positions we were in, but i never could really tell if it was good to let you go. my mind reels in so many different ways, repeated treachery and your fake smile; he looks at me with those adoring eyes and i think that maybe i am beautiful, if even just for today.
[#67]
we have visions in which i am perfect and you are everything i need.
the sun shines on eyes and we blink, cliche and unaware into the cloud.
silver beams and your soul on display for hell and back again.
sometimes i sit and just listen to what needs to be heard;
but yesterday is gone, and at the end of the day i am left alone with the things i have done.
Author notes
i don't know.
i seriously, have nothing in me left to give.
i apologize
[p.s. title is © ludo<33
A contest entry
- Teens Only- Poems and Prose: The Good Stuff Competition by hks.
480 points, ended June 14, 2008, 16 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
make me whole again
Comments
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I still love this...and you.
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The strange thing for me is, I can read your work and...after being so taken by the amazing metaphors and concepts that your brilliant mind creates, I find that I understand what your piece is saying...one must really listen and pay attention, also to what is beneath.
Anyway, after if that made any sense, wow!
♥
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fuck.
baby. you are so amazing.
"tangled emptiness and impatience collapsed into my heart, and i, i knew what train tracks were for, even if you told me i didn't.
we have visions in which i am perfect and you are everything i need.
the sun shines on eyes and we blink, cliche and unaware into the cloud.
silver beams and your soul on display for hell and back again.
sometimes i sit and just listen to what needs to be heard;
but yesterday is gone, and at the end of the day i am left alone with the things i have done.
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seriously girl. you kill me.
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mmm, wow.
i always love your work, but this is raw and beautiful... somewhat more raw than normal.
plus, LUDO! AHH, I LOVE LUDO.
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