these tears, desensitizing
drain away all my innocence
and all my fears
are realised in this moment
one earth-shattering decision
can change the course of time
oh god, I have nowhere to run
I can't turn around and face this
bleeding regret from unseen wounds
because no one can see me anymore
I've destroyed what little I had left
and this can't be retraced
left all alone
with empty words
and the promises I couldn't keep
taking time to see
all the ways I've f#$%ed up lately
and just drowning in my mistakes
I can't even see the end
these self-inflicted scars
will never heal
bruised and bleeding
lost...
to eternity
Author notes
I wrote this a few hours after I lost my virginity a couple nights ago, on my fifteenth birthday. The paper I wrote it on is so tearstained it's barely legible.. it's not by far any of my best work, but you want raw emotion, you got it. This is as raw as it gets, and I'm still suffering for it.
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You say that it's not your best work? It is raw, real, deep. I have felt those scars and still do to this day. You have opened yourself without regard for perfection, and that is what makes this piece perfect. It caused emotion to stir inside me that I thought I was desensatized to. Thank you for being so candid. Good luck in the contest.
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