Closure

Ray,
You said,
" I seriously never thought we were that serious!"
Are you kidding me? If we were never that serious
then please tell me why you kissed me? Not just any
kiss either. Yours were the kisses that stole my
breath away and caused the very earth beneath my
feet to shift. If you weren't serious why did you
pursue me and then suddenly pull away? Why did you
smile at me? Run your finger down my cheek and look
into my eyes as if I were the only woman alive?
Better still, why did you tell me repeatedly over
the course of six years that I had a chance? Only
to tell me, in an e-mail of all things that you
have found a " special lady," and the two of you
have been together for over a year and are planning
to marry? You came to my place of employment with
her and rather than introduce me then and there
you completely ignored me on two separate occasions.
Why did you allow me to tell you that I was in love
with you? If you weren't serious you should have
stopped me then and there. You did nothing except
entertain my heart and then stomp on it as if it
is nothing more than mud and dirt on the bottom of
your shoes! You knew exactly how I felt about you!
I never made any bones about how I felt. I told you
face to face and in e-mails, cards and letters. I
wore my heart ever so prominently upon my sleeve and
totally disregarded every one around me when they
said you weren't worth my time and effort. I truly
believed in what I felt with you and how " we," felt
together! I was seeing someone else during one of your
long periods of absence and one day, out of the blue
there you were on my doorstep! I let a wonderful man
go because I couldn't love him the way that I loved
you! If you weren't serious you should have made that
clear instead of toying with something as wonderful
and precious as a person's heart! I wish nothing but
the best for you as I could never wish you any thing
less and I hope and pray that you treasure the woman
you are about to marry a lot more than you ever
treasured me. If you aren't serious about a woman
don't kiss her, don't smile at her, don't take away
her hopes and dreams by toying with her as you did me!

Signed,
Now on the road to recovery.
Never truly yours ever again!