Angel

I wrote the following poem for my best friend ever.  She was my dog and she died of cancer at age 6.  We noticed she started going downhill a month before I wrote this poem, but she got really bad towards the end.  Her last week we took her to the vet everyday in hopes she would get better, she didn't.  During her last week, I sat down and started writing this poem for her while she had her head on my foot.  I finished half of it and read it to her her last night with us.  The following morning we took her back to the vet and they told us it was too late so we had to put her down.  I wrote the last part after I got the call that she was gone.  I then went out to our tank, which was her favorite spot, and finished the poem for her. After I read it to her aloud, I ripped the paper and threw it into the water for her.  She was my baby girl and I still miss her.

ANGEL
I can see it in your eyes, you're not what you used to be
You're slowly fading, and its killing me
I cant help but think of days before
The way you jumped and played; your head peaking through the doggie door
I keep telling myself you'll pull through
But I find it hard to believe that its true
There's something wrong thats for sure
I just wish I could do something more

You're our little Angel and you're fading fast
You're a memory that'll always last
You've touched our lives more than you know
And that's why its killing me to let you go
I want to make your pain go away
Even if that means that you can't stay
Soon you'll be gone and out of this world
But you'll always be my baby girl

I watched you through the door tonight
And I held back the tears with all my might
But they just started flowing like the sea
thinking of how you used to be
Like when you broke your leg and had a cast
but you still got around oh so fast
Or the way you'd run through the tank
You'd jump on the couch and make it stink
When I look at that tank you'll always be there
running through it without a care

You're our little Angel and you're fading fast
You're a memory that'll always last
You touched our lives more than you know
And that's why its killing me to let you go
I want to make your pain go away
Even if that means that you can't stay
Soon you'll be gone and out of this world
But you'll always be my baby girl

January 14 was the fateful day
When I heard the news my skies turned grey
The phone rang and I couldn't answer
I called back and found out it was cancer
I couldn't cry, move, or speak
My chest hurt and my legs went weak
The only girl I have ever needed
Had fought with cancer and been defeated

She's our little Angel and she faded fast
She's a memory that'll always last
She touched our lives more than she knows
And that's why it killed me to let her go
I wanted to make her pain go away
Which is why she couldn't stay
Now she's gone and out of this world
But she'll always be my baby girl

An empty house and a heart the same
It aches so bad with the sound of her name
Everything reminds me so much of her
When this will end I just can't be sure
She'd want me to be strong and not to cry
So just for her that's what I'll try
In my heart she will always be
Outside Heaven's Gates waiting for me