I go out at night
putt on a pretty dress
Beautified on the outside
but on the inside i'm a mess
I gather up my friends
we drink and we have fun
but while my body's there
My mind is allready gone
But as long as you keep smiling
everything is fine
realizing this hurts
and so i take tonight's first line
You don't care anymore
and your confidence is back
You take another one
and your memory goes black
Finally you feel alive
like no one's ever hurt you
I know that this won't help
But i don't know what else to do
Sometimes people ask me
what is going on
that i should be happy
and that doing coke is wrong
That i am just bored
and that my live isn't that bad
Cos i can go shopping and i model
so i have no right to be sad
Do they know how i struggle each day
barely scraping by
how everything just hurts too much
Making me want to die?
So don't tell me i don't need it
coz i'm such a great girl
because all that fucking ignorance
makes me want to hurl
Author notes
something else i wrote last night, lol as you can tell my weekend sucked. Hope all of you had more fun than i had!
Comments
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wow i really like this poem keep wrighting your good
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"Finally you feel alive
like no one's ever hurt you "
i like that. a lot. a lot a lot.
because it could be applied to practically anything, drinking drugs ect etc. ((i never know how to do ect which way it goes)
"That i am just bored
and that my live isn't that bad
...so i have no right to be sad"
rolls eyes. been there.
"how everything just hurts too much
Making me want to die?"
God. sigh. been there.
*hugs*
"because all that ######## ignorance
makes me want to hurl"
that made me smile but i shouldnt, it's true. but just how you put it is funny (((((((i had to spell ##### wrong because of filter on comp lol))))))
i really liked this a lot. you put amazing emotion in it
i hope things get better soon darling
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L.

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this is really good, and even though i'm young i can relate to parts of it, like the doing coke and everything. i've had to grow up way to fast nd i've been put in plenty of situations i should never have been put in.
Great write, lot of emotion in it
keep up the good work





