My Everything

I love you so much
And you know that
But I'm reminding you anyway
Just in case

We have had some very
Hard times lately
And you probably feel guilty
For having been so snippy
That the last thing you
Think I will remember is
You being short with me
But you're wrong

I forgive you, don't worry
I understand, understood
Things are tight, stressful
It was just how you were reacting
It had nothing to do with me

But I want you to know now
I've always looked up to you
You've been great in my eyes
A guiding star
Showing me the way and
Guiding me along

You've nearly always been there
Whenever you could
I could talk to you about
Almost everything
You've been my friend all along

Whatever you did, I wanted
To do it to, I always
Longed for and trusted
Your opinion and knowledge
In both my eyes and reality
You were rarely ever wrong

You are the reason I'm here today
You made me what I am
I don't know where or who
I would be if not for you
But it's probably something scary

I know we had our issues
I know neither of us
Was ever perfect
But it always got better
We were always there
For each other

There are things I wish
I had done or said to you
Like how I knew for a long time
That He was the one
And how I hid it because
I felt he was taking you from me
And I was jealous

I wish I had told you that
I always felt I was living in
My sister's shadow
And how a lot of teasing things
That were said to me
Hurt like knives

I wish I had been happier
Instead of dampening
Other people's good moods
And I wish I had been
More grateful of what you did
I wish I had hugged you
More often then I did

You are my everything
My good friend
My hero and idol
My guiding star
My Mother

Mommy, I love you so much
Please try not to cry too much
When I'm gone for good
I know you'll miss me
And I'll miss you too
I love you so much
And I'm glad that you know it