The Other 'Her'

This 1s for, the 1 who sees me as, the 'homewrecker', herself;
U know I wasnt looking, but yet I saw him on the shelf..
I passed him by,but never picked him up, since I wasnt there to shop;
But then he kinda startled me, when he fell, rite from the top..
As I dusted him, & opened him, looked thru sum pages, just to read;
I found myself, once more w/ laughter, which for so long, I'd been in need..
I held him carefully w/ both hands, cuz I could see, he'd seen sum rain;
& as the days turned in2 weeks, I realized my feelings changed..

See, w/ the years u spent 2gether, Im sure you'd grown used to the sight;
Of seeing him, there on ur bookshelf, thru every loud & ugly fight..
Quite sure 4gotten,that just like any, we must work hard, so things smooth flow;
But u did not give much concern, so y ur shocked now, I dont know..
So long ago, tho, Im just guessing,u reached a point, as u didnt care;
Full of ur ugly, vulgar words, & disrespect he could not bear..
U make ur threats, cuz now another, comes along, 'disrupts' ur life;
Im not competing, he seems to like MY ways, & it doesnt MATTER, who's the 'wife'..

I cannot ask 4 ur 4giveness, because w/ him, Im being ME;
& u should know, that when I asked him so, he DID say 'single', & 'quite free'..
I realize, that there r children here, w/ who it seems, his life revolves;
But just because there r sum kids there, doesn't mean ur problem's solved..
U would see, if u would take the time, 2 just step back, & stop & think;
Theres just so many things u COULD HAVE DONE, but years flew by, gone in a blink..

I am not asking 4 ur friendship, I dont even ex~pect 'polite';
But dont blame ME, or use the kids, as 1 more weapon in ur fight..
If u should hate me, be it so, I still dont feel a bit remorse; He sees me daily, & constant phonecalls, doing NOTHING out of force..
Perhaps its true, Im just a plaything, perhaps for him, there'll BE a next;
But what I give to him, hes STARVING for, & make no mistake, its NOT 4 sex..

Maybe to you, ur words seem truthful, that Im a 'dumb bitch', 'trash', a 'whore';
So it must burn you, then, I'M thinking, that what he sees in me, he RUNS for..
Call me ur names, have ur ideas, but much like you, ur threats dont last;
I may BE, all that you SAY I AM, but Ive still got DIGNITY & CLASS..
Ur words dont hurt me, they dont scare me, to u, I see, Im STILL not real;
But u cant change the way I live MY LIFE, or change the things I make him feel..

I wish, 2 u, the best in ur own life, even w/ him, if it should be;
But realize, that in the present time, he WANTS to be for ME..
U may have children, have sum history, even a sweet memory (or two);
But I did NOT put in his head, that he should NOT stay there w/ YOU..

So as I hold him by the evening light, I will feel NOT, as I have wronged;
Because in sum words that HE told me once, altho you 'see' him, he's BEEN gone..
I did not WANT to know u existed, did not WANT to 'take' ur man';
I just happened to have been there, when he came along, changed ALL our plans..
Think it over, come to senses, let reality sink in;
If u should REALLY want to keep him, Im sure YOU KNOW where to begin..

I am no angel,much like YOURself, but yet Im doing SOMEthing RIGHT;
Because hes calling me now daily, & it isnt ONLY when u fight..
Learn the lesson here, & use it well, in whatever path u take;
That even with YEARS so FIRMLY planted, even the  PERMANENT can BREAK...