no longer the blam

What makes us better then all the rest
Young and un-developed to be a victim of incest?
He is a loving father is all we ever heard,
so that makes it okay?is that what we deserve?
For years the pain stay marinading within my head,
Soon turned into thoughts of wishing I were dead.
What did I do wrong,why did he chose me?
I could barley spell my name so what did he really see?
He said I was the most beautiful woman in the world,
He had to have been ill I was just a little girl.
I couldn't figure it out I knew it was my fault
My entire exsistance just came to a halt.
He took my meaning of childhood right from under my feet,
It seemed like all men pictured me as an easy piece of meat.
I didn't know "real love" nor did I have "real friends",
I got to the point where I just wanted my life to end
As I'd gotten older I had finally figured it out
It had nothing to do with me it made me want to shout
This man, my father so he called himself
Was a nothing even close just a person who needs mental help
How could you bring yourself to tant a young child
You deserve to be in prison is what they said at his trial.
For years I did nothing but blame myself and wanna die,
The tears overwelmed me so it was eaiser to just cry.
Therapy didn't work and friends were no help
So I turned to the ones how knew how I felt.
It was eaiser to confied in someone who understood
It put things in perspective in ways I didn't know they could
NEVER blame yourself for things you CAN'T control
blame only HIM because your childhood he stole.
I know things are easier said then done
But think of what you've accomplished and the battle you've won.
I wouldn't say this if I didn't know personally myself
Use your expirence for other young girls that need help...