Dearest One

My darling how I miss you so.  My love for you will never deminish only grow. My beloved how could we fall so far by the wayside that my daughter could come between us?  I had nothing to do with that.  The tears that fall are tears of pain. The do not fall from my eyes for it is to deep

of a pain to do that but they fall from the punishment I inflicted upon myself when you turned your  back on me. What did I do that made you turn your back on me my beloved one.  My love for you will always be there even in the darkest of night and the darkest of hours.  Don't turn your face from me for this was not my fault.  I didn't do it...  you don't speak to me even though I ask.  You don't answer me when I text you but I know you are there. 

Oh my darling, my love, my forever soul husband what I would give to have you return to my arms.  I would even get down on my knees and kiss your feet if this is what you would have me do.  Rivers of shame I no longer have when it comes to my love for you.  It is pure and loyal and true.  It is not fair nor is it right that you have turned your beautiful face from my glowing love. I am left to cry within the darkest of the night waiting for you to come to me and knowing you won't.  My soul feels empty and so very alone, my heart is breaking, you feel like stone. Granite, cold and aloof, hard and unmoving, sculpt my heart upon this granite rock see each line, see each hurt, see the pain that is baring down on me.  I cannot cry, I cannot shout, I wish to die, I wish to sleep in eternal night.

My beloved one don't you see we belong together in the soul?  You are my mate, my forever love, the one that I will spend all eternity to be with.  You have been there in each life time before me and will be in each lifetime after this one.  My love is as a ocean endless and complete, blue with the shades of white and browns upon its sparkling depths.  I am tired now my love, my life, maybe I will lay down in the bed of white, where once we loved each other so complete.  The sheets stain in red from the tears I cry without my eyes but with my body.

Punish not me nor my soul for we didn't do this to you or to us.  I am not willing to give up on us and this comes straight from the heart even though it cannot begin to say what I feel.  I sleep now the rest of the damned, the darkened soul.   Never goodbye always hello, take this heart and mend it now, make it whole, for only your live can make it complete.  I go now to sleep the sleep of the damned...Till we meet again my beloved one.

Dnyjec, E muja oui suna dryh ceva.   Tuh'd dinh ouin vyla vnus sa.

Love your Feva