I feel like such an idiot
for still hurting this much
I miss the way you looked at me
I miss your very touch
I feel so stupid all the time
For still missing you like this
I miss the times we shared
I miss our old bliss
I want someone to read you this
and for you to realize
we were meant to be
and even though you hurt me so bad
I love you for all eternity.
I feel like such a loser
for sitting in this place
I miss missing the crimson tears
I miss my dry face
but tears run down my face again
and crimson tears they pour
I don't know how to deal with this
was i just an other whore
I can't keep living life this way
I can't continue to hurt
i can't keep breathing everyday
while I know you just flirt
i know now i was nothing to you
and it hurts me deep inside
to know i gave you everything
and my love just wont subside
i keep trying over and over again
to get past this pain and regret
but nothing ever helps
pills dont make you forget
the doctors think i'm getting better
but in fact i'm getting worse
every day without you
is closer to a hurse
closer to a funeral
my name on the tombstone above
I wish i was 6 feet under
and no longer felt this love
I miss you more then anything ever
and need you more then air
but i know when i need you
you never will be there
I fell like such an idiot
for keeping the notes you wrote me
but i know that i'll never
be free of this misery
Author notes
wow...i still miss him. i want him to read this and sumhow just remember what it was like to kiss me...instead of how much he hates me. he promised me fucking forever...now what? i'm without him..i'm dead
this is a very very true poem
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heartbraking. i hope all gets better. keep writing!
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awe I am so sorry. I know just how you feel, hon for I have been through this, too. Keep strong. Time will eventually numb the pain. Good luck, and keep writing! This was really good.
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Wow. I could relate to this poem so much. My girlfriend dumped me a year ago and now hates me for no reason. The insecurities are now hurting the greatest relationship I've ever had. For letting that get the better of me I am such an idiot. Great job on this poem, it really spoke to me and I'm sorry about what that guy did to you. It is his loss. Love is so beautiful and precious....anyway Love the poem and I am sorry for going off like that.
-Steve-
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Feel your pain
This is an awesome write!! It had a good flow and very deep emotion. I mostly enjoyed it cause I have been there in a way am still there. I won't go into details but I feel your pain. Just know "we" are not the idiots, "they" are. It just takes a while for it not to feel that way. Anyway good poem
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i know what your going through
been there done that and honestly i still miss him but trust me it will get better im actuallt talkin to *him* as i write this so it gets better and your definetly NOT an idiot i think the idiot here is ME!!!!!! and you should message me i think we could get along GREAT
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You aren't an idiot. If anything he would be the idiot. I don't really know you but you seem very genuine and that's really hard to find, so if he would let that go then he's a moron
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i feel i miss someone too
In fact i do...i am an idiot for missing him....
anyway, good poem...i can totally relate -
Love is pain
Pain is life
Piercing words from a broken heart, cheers.
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Love it
I miss mine too, he promised that he would never "do those things to me, you know that they did" but he did just that. I can't stand it and I feel how you feel, I don't want him back but i miss him, I miss him being around here even if it was a damn lie...thanks for the write I enjoyed it! -
heart breakingly wonderful
wow that touched me. i feel like this about someone. i would like to read them this, ill tell them its not mine its yours do you mind? -
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as long as you tell them i wrote it then of course.
it seems so many people have felt this pain.
NO ONE deserves it, but I can tell you from experiance it took me the better part of a year but I am over this and though it hurts at the time it does get better if you give it time. if you wanna talk let me kno...im on constantly -
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thank you.
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That was very beautiful.
I liked it.
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i like that :[ sweet.
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It is hard when we miss the one that we love with time I do hope that things improve for you thanks for sharing goodluck
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wow. been there done that bought the tee shirt and wore it out. just been dumped by the love of my life because he claimed not to love me anymore. and yet i'm here on this site, writing all this emo poetry about his love, reading poetry that someone relates to me.
your poem was passionate and there wasn't a line i couldn't relate to, even you saving all the notes he wrote you *i save IM's hehe* was totally up my alley. i'm glad you shared this because i somehow feel a little bit better knowing that i'm not alone in my hopeless feeling. and if anything, i hope you feel a bit better about the situation, and hopefully find a happier place. thank you for sharing your poetry and i hope to read more in the near future (seems like i'll be busy reading all 200-orso poems you've posted already XD)
luvs,
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Wow...I can really relate to this. This is so powerfully pationate. Great job on this...I love it.
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wow This is exactly how I feel about somebody and he hates me too. gah it freakin sucks.
good job i love it
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I think you have a lot of promise as a poet. This is very poignant. I could release my inner editor and start nitpicking (misspelled this, cadence off here, etc.), but I think that would actually be counter-productive. I can tell you aren't just making it up, or adopting a persona for the sake of a story, because it rings true. Very well said. Keep writing! I want to see what you can come up with later. And remember that you're never an idiot for loving someone. I know it may feel like it, but it's not true.
Still Anonymous
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=[ saadd I both love and hate this theres a lot of feeling in it and its well written but its really sad and makes the reader feel at least some of your pain good write
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this is so sad! heartbreaks hurt so much, i hope you are doing better now, i know how it feels, to feel like you're dieing because the pain is so uncearable
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To be valued... value your life
Often the best way to get others to value us is to value ourselves. Sometimes we haven't lost what we really had and only what we led ourselves to believe we had. Some times both persons need to grow a bit and later find each other again.
If you gave a special part of you you only meant to give to person that would be there forever. Join the club of how much that hurts. There are young men and young women just like you hurting. I am a survivor. You can be too.
Suicide is a lie of depression to become worst abuser. We can live through a broken heart yet we cannot live through suicide. There are counselors 24/7 at below link you can chat with online.
CLICK HERE >http://newhopenow.org/counseling/liveperson.html
I've volunteered on Dr. Phil Website 5 years posting suicide prevention and other help numbers.
For others to believe you matter always remember SELF MATTERS INCLUDES YOU. "You are never alone if you are there for you." Be there. Hop on back over to your cheering section and be your loudest cheerleader. If you are unable to do on your own let your doctor know and/or contact link above.
When we don't see how things are going to work out just only means hasn't yet not won't. I've been there where it felt like wouldn't. Guess what... always has worked out "one tear, one smile, one day, one moment at a time".
Things that matter take time... You matter so take the time to love you. Don't ever believe the lies of depression... Keep reaching out until you find the positive help that helps. Maybe you can find New Hope at newhopenow link above. I hope so... I've felt hopeless before in my life, too, yet remember that even in the word hopeless there is always hope.
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this is so sad how he did that to you...some guy are such pigs and won't never come back
great write
I give you 10 points
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amazing poem
i loved it!
random question... can i take it and copy paste it to my deviantart account in my journal if i give you credit???
angelzgo2hell2.deviantart.com
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as long as i get full credit u can use it sure
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Wow
I can relate to this poem. It was very good. I love the fact you describe how you want him to read this. This was in a sad. The part i was like why was this "I don't know how to deal with this was i just an other whore" but the part i loved was when you said "I fell like such an idiot for keeping the notes you wrote me
but i know that i'll never be free of this misery" i did the same i even kept my break up note and i look at it once awhile. Many guys promise forever but forever never happens because nothing lasts forever. I am kinda sad that this is a true poem. This was very well written. I liked it alot as you can tell. Thanks for entering my contest i wish you the best of luck. one last time i have to say this poem was amazing.
..<3..
Shelly
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No one is worth dying for. I enjoyed your poem and sharing your feelings. Shancy.
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wow, that was simply beautiful! I loved this and could relate to it so well! Exactly what I was looking for! Great job, and the flow was flawless!
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wow.I agree with SHARPTOOTH,this is real and came from the heart.Never feel like an idiot because love is a real B-I-t-C-h...& there's nothing we can do about it but try and be strong.I've been where u are and feeling like crap is nothing but normal.So hang in there you'll get through!!! Good luck!
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You are never an idiot for missing, caring or adoring anybody. It proves you are human. Which is fantastic, although it feels like shit. I could not, for the life of me, let go of this bloke I knew for only 8 days. But he rocked my world silly.
It took over a year of feeling like ass. It does fade. I promise.
Your poem came from the heart, & that's great.
.... and just one small correction, hurse = hearse.
- Jaye
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omg hun is this still about derek? u need to 4get him 4 ur own good! i love you and i dont want to see u hurting or feeling this way. *hugs* im always here 4 u i promise.
much love, christina
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