I don't know,
But it's the story of my life,
Playing common-law wife,
Being treated like a fool.
Man,this just ain't cool.
See, I don't know what to think
When he's had too much to drink,
And I don't know what to do.
He could be out there loving you.
Cause I don't know how to play,
It's not like back in the day.
I don't know,
But it's the story of my life,
Playing common-law wife.
I don't know when he lies;
The truth just ain't in his eyes.
I don't know what to do;
Should I say his words are true.
If he thinks that it's okay,
Should I let him have his way?
I don't know what to say,
Because he thinks that I'm crazy.
I don't know,
But it's the story of my life,
Playing common-law wife.
I don't know how to dress;
He says I look a mess.
I don't know where to go,
Cause he think I'm being a hoe.
I don't know how to talk;
He says I speak too slow,
and I don't know how to walk.
I don't know which way to go.
I don't know,
But it's the story of my life,
Playing common-law wife.
I don't know if I should cry,
Cause then he'll want to know why,
And if I say the wrong thing
It just might end up in a swing,
But I don't know if I should run,
Cause he just might get the gun.
I don't know.
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- Ending the Cycle of Abuse by midnightblue1272.
600 points, ended May 27, 2008, 17 entries
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wow,
i absolutely love this poem it's so beautiful in the ways you express it i can just imagine your pain
stay strong keep your head up keep praying look forward to the future because greater things lie ahead of you
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VERY MOVING..
A tale of an abusive relationship being relayed to the reader in a unique style of expression.The wording is passionate and the imageries very revealing to the reader.Gone are those days when women are regarded as second class citizens;this is the age of empowerment.It is hight you spoke to him about this sadistic relationship before he ruins you emotionally and otherwise.Take care and God bless you.
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*shaking my head*
One of the most heartbreaking poems I ever read. I can answer the questions in stanza 2 for you: NO! Do not let him have his way. Don't believe him. Superb write!
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It's sad, but true, so many relationships are built around the abusiveness of one partner. I guess it starts with the "common-law" part, if he really loved her he would have married her. The fact that he didn't shows his lack of respect for her to begin with.
But, having said that, marriage is not necessarily the answer either. Many a relationship that sparkled before the "I Do", turned sour immediately after. An abuser is an abuser, no matter the circumstance.
Nor is it necessarily a matter of bad choices either, one who is wonderful can turn into a monster once they get you where they want you.
The way out is oft fraught with danger, but must be taken if your happiness is ever to return. To do other is too accept a lingering death of the body and spirit. True courage marches on, weakness lags behind.
Wonderful write, with a sense of direction.
Brazos
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A tragic..
tale of an abusive relationship built
on lies and illusions. Some people just
don't know how to select the right mate.
Its the same old song, "looking for love
in all the wrong places."
Sometimes we need to be alone long enough
to commune with our own soul. If we don't
know who we are or how to love ourselves
how can others truly love us. -
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Thank you so much for your incouraging words.
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My Dear
You are a strong woman, so don't allow him to drag you down to his level. This isn't love. Leave him and start your life anew. One step at a time. Just ask the Lord for guidance and He will lead you in the path He would have you take. Trust in Him. Just call out to Him, He's there for you....Katie -
The whole purpose behind a man like this, is to drag you so low, you can't think for yourself and lose all self worth. Having succeeded in doing that, controlling you comes easily and makes the idiot feel like a man, which he aint! Makes him feel powerful, which he aint! Makes him feel loved in some twisted way, but you aren't even fit to love anymore when you get that low, so once again, its delusional stuff, destructive, unhealthy and.... well boring really, so much more to life if you look for it.
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Well my advice to you would be get your own gun first and than RUN!!!! Cause this situation will NEVER change. We would like to think that the love of a strong woman is all it takes but that is so far from the truth it ain't even funny!! I stood here once before and I was caught up in the swings and no matter how much I loved him it was never enough and in the end I realized that is what because I didn't love myself..So risked death to leave him and I have not regreted it once!! Be strong....Stand tall....and believe that you are worth so much more!!! Best wishes and be well.....
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WOW... This was so powerful..I know many women in this situation and they just, like you, dont know what to do.
It really immobilizes you into just staying and putting up with the stuff he dishes out. I don't know if this is just a write or the truth, if it is the truth, I hope you are able to get out of it. Either way, it was something that had a great message to other women.
Thank you for sharing.
Soulful Woman
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