I Miss You

I just want to see you breathe,
Just want to see you breathe,
And be all that you can be.

Close to the fact that your still here but far from the one that I lie,
My secrets will hide forever,
Mouth shut in a thin line because not even you could understand.

Leave for hope or stay for this?

Even when things seem ok they’re really not,
So long to what life use to be,
[You say you can’t change it but you just don’t want to,]
Say goodbye to me,
[I say things that I don’t mean, what they want to hear and they smile]
Never second guess,
[You’re falling but you don’t know because you care too much about what they think]
If I left you would’ve never noticed.

And I did.

No one knows.

Would you never ever let my heart break again?
Too late and the world doesn’t care,
It goes on and on and it’s beautiful,
Sometimes I die, yet I go on and on,
And it’s horrible but it’s life.

Maybe I just felt like a fucking angel,
Maybe you just got fucking scared that I wasn’t stupid.

Everyday I go from smiles to tears like a cycle,
Why won’t you let me keep this?
So when I see you walk away I wonder,
What the hell went wrong,
Why am I still watching you,
Why the fuck do I want you to smile when all you do is make me cry?

And I think about it all the time,
When your arms are around me and you're smiling,
When you laughed at my stupid jokes and told me everything was ok,
When you said you loved me.
So when the lights turn on and I walk through the doors I'll never forget,
And our inside jokes stay just so and no one will ever know,
I miss the way it felt when you put your arm around me,

I miss the way we searched for the stars together in the dark.