right here;

EVerytime I left you, I was afraid--
Afraid you wouldn't keep the fact that I care,
in your mind, remaining stitched to my handprint
I'm all over your skin;
and I'd like to think, beneath it
even if it hurts you,
like poison seeping  deep into your pores

When I walk away, my heart turns around
my face remains composed, stature--upright
I can't show weakness, I felt like--
for you I always had to be strong
where are we now?
Caught between saying 3 years has or hasn't--
been worth it

I can say, it was worth it
no matter where we fall or land
between a rock and a hard place
between words and silence
I can remember the door, how I walked away
how I gave up for another day
but inside, I kept a reminder of you
I'd like to say exactly what we are
but my heart calls out all sorts of names

and the magnetic electricity I feel when you're near
can't tell me the answers either
tell me what we are?
maybe one day we'll find out
but no matter how hard we may fall
I always come back to you,
scratching at the door of your heart
whining at the lock that sometimes remains opened

I debate--caught between confusion, love, what's right
should I go in? Should I stay here until she calls me?
often times, I walked away, roaming around a city
with your body--your frame, nearby
and holding gun in hand,
I was ready to blow them all away
the monsters under your bed,
the demons in your head

Love is so much more than a word
I realize that now
It's bigger than what we are
bigger than an emotion
and fragile like glass
it's not eternal, it's not impassive,
more like a miracle, a poison, a cure
You can't contain it for long

but between us, it's always danced like firelight
through our eyes and between our hearts
those red diamonds that pump out oxygen
every now and again
I used to think I stitched mine in place
because it fell down and got beat up a few times
but around you, I'm a flower in bloom
and the world forms around your image

mirror image, mirror masks,
I can see us--all the many times it's happened,
walking away and coming together again
we're incredible sometimes
I could be halfway across the world
and still know you need me
and one phonecall would bring me--
across oceans to your side

Remember Xena && Gabrielle?
sometimes I think we're them
but whose who?
I can't really tell 'cause it varies
Sometimes you're strong when I'm not
sometimes you're right when I'm wrong
Sometimes I protect you when you're weak
or set things right, like a fractured bone
you need to mend--
and I expect nothing of you right now
but to take the time and heal your heart

right here--always
Never.Forget.It.