weakness

you say one thing
and i say another
things wee said
both good and bad
i try helping you
but that just blows up in my face
i accepted, and you didnt reply
i loved, but it seems that you didnt love back
i try becoming closer with you
becoming one
but you kept shutting me out
whatever is between us
keeping us apart,
your just pushing closer
and closer
so that you can breath
but i am slowly losing breath
when your left
i fell down
i could feel your pain
but what you thought was the end
was nothing close to the matter
i never and will never not want to be with you
and i never said "not together"
so what am i suppose to do with myself
apperently im not good enough for you
you are the only person in the world that i've been able to love
why are you not letting me love you?
they were born,
and evn though i never met them
i still felt close to them
because you took the time to love them
i love them even though i can't in person
you said that you had to ask your husband
and i said i wanted to be their father
but then again, you never replied
you may be asking why am i wasting my breath
well think about, if i didnt want to be with you
why am i trying so hard to show you that i love you
you may never love again, ok
but i will never stop loving you
im scared when i think about love
its the one thing i can't control
i can control my emotions
but when it comes to you and love
im helpless
we all have a weakness
my weakness is the love i have for you
my greatest fear is love
but i stood tall and took the time to love you
people say that im too young
that i shouldn't say yes to being a father
for being a husband
but all i had to say to those people is
"i dont care, i love him"