I walked to the magazine rack looking for God
I paid the price for perfect painted photos
Bare asses, plump breast, pink vaginae
Pleasure for the eyes to give rise below
I walked into the parlor looking for God
I paid the price for the sensual touch
The gentle caress to arouse my senses
Paid dollars to undress for viewing and touching
A sensual tingle and light stimulating touch
Arousal assisted by velvet hands' caress
Spewed semen at ecstasy's height of delight
Naked bodies embraced at hours end, then severed
I walked into the room looking for God
She smiled with her eyes as my excitement rose
I offered her my treasure in exchange for artificial love
The cost would be raised to a piece of my soul
My hardness below took my will and my control
She reached her hand there to let me know
I was hers for the hour, mind, body and soul
I exposed my skin and entered my secret sin
I embraced a body paid for that night
She caressed by back, my butt and held me tight
I pulled off her thong and exposed her rear
I bent my knee to taste her pleasurable pink colitis
I lifted her cover exposing her beautiful chest
My lips pressed, sucking her succulent breast
She smiled and perspired her whole body wet
In passions heat, we laid onto her silk-sheeted bed
Her legs spread open wide beckoning me inside
There was no resistance no matter how I tried
I entered and forsook a piece of my soul
As my semen drained from my very heart into her hole
I dressed while she remained nude for my pleasure
But it was too late, for I had lost my treasure
What remained of my soul was filled with shame
I left in tears and fears knowing I was the one to blame
I walk this earth a shadow of a man, beaten by lust
I am alone, ashamed and lacking any trust
In desperation, I sought my God in all the wrong places
Now I hide inside not daring to look at eyes or faces
Author notes
"When a society loses faith in God, lesser powers arise to take God's place. " Every man who knocks on the door of a brothel is looking for God ," said G. K. Chesterton. In modern Europe and the U.S., sex has a near-sacred quality of mythic, numinous power. We select our sexiest individuals and accord them the status of gods and goddesses, fawning over the details of their lives, broadcasting their bodily statistics, surrounding them with paparazzi, rewarding them with money and status. Sex no longer points to something beyond; it becomes the thing itself, the substitute sacred.
The very word sex comes from a Latin verb that means to cut off or sever, and sexual impulses drive us to unite, to restore somehow the union that has been severed. Freud diagnosed the deep pain within as a longing for union with a parent; Jung diagnosed a longing for union with the opposite sex. The Christian sees a deeper longing, for union with the God who created us."
- Philip Yancy
I am a Christian. To any Christian reading this, I am sorry if you are offend by the words. As a Christian though I am celibate, I am far from pure. I have learned in my walk of faith that sex is a desire not a need. My desire for God ought to be above all my desires. Even my desire for sexual intercourse can be overcome by my desire and need for God. Sex is a gift from God to be enjoyed in committed relationship. Any attempt at sexual fulfillment outside of the bound of a committed marital relationship will leave one empty and drained. Every sexual encounter takes a piece of our soul except in marriage where it unites two souls for the two are one. Sexual encounters offer a temporary pleasure but at a high price. This is the point of this piece. I admit even as a Christian I know this not as head knowledge but from experience.
As a Christian, I am learning that it is possible not to sin. There is freedom in Christ. Even freedom from the sin of lust.
A contest entry
- Skeletons in the Closet? by XHollowXEyesX.
800 points, ended June 2, 2008, 24 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Comments
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powerful~
This is a very emotional intense poem
On that I agree with stavykym
The rhyme flow and imagery were also impeccable..
There is just sex and there is a sexual love...
I much more perfer the sexual love..tho in my teens I was just out for the sex and a good time...as I got older that changed....
I don't think I could handle being single and starting all over again....
And I also know what a strong relationship you have with God from our conversations on the phone..
Someday you will find someone worthy of your love and you will make a loving Christan husband....and your love will be a forever love........
Thank you for sharing this emotional poem with us...
Best of luck in the contest...
Love n hugs
Susan~~~
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Excellent
You wrote a very emotionally intense poem here with realistic erotic imagery, rhyme, rhythm and flow. There was a beginning, middle and end. This is a poem of rigorous honesty so many are unwilling to share, especially a Christian, being one myself I feel I have the right to say this!! I loved your poem and your message that you send with it. Very powerful message not only when our desire of fulfillment comes from sex but also many other desires to fill the empty hole we feel inside. I would agree the hole that we are filling is that we are not being filled up to the brim with our relationship with the Lord.
We live in a fallen world and there are so many temptations. Sexual relations is a beautiful God given intimacy meant to be between a husband and wife. For centuries I believe this is the hardest temptation for all mankind.
You I admire so much for your gift to write in such a manner which shows wisdom within a humble spirit and soul with heart.
Just want to say I believe you are a beautiful Christian man and anything you've ever done is forgiven through the Lord. We all far short but hopefully strive to fulfill our desires for the Lords reasons.
I love sensual and erotic poems for they are part of being human as long as they are not used inappropriately, they can be very beautiful!!
Thank you for sharing your gift of yourself and your talent to write incredible poetry.
Many Blessings
God Bless
Much Love
Kelle Marie
stavykm
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ah the path of lust, it is a temptation to all i suppose, to go for easy loving ways at the cost of the bank account, a good poem.
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I am not a christian, or religious in any way,so I do not completely understand your beliefs or how lust or sex is a sin. I mean we need it to carry on our species and, actually I am not getting into it, I have alot of respect for others beliefs and religions, and you have great talent on expressing it.
This piece was very enjoyble to read. The flow and style was so natural and the descriptive languuage that you involved to create your message was so creative. It was almost as if I were watching a porn film, great use of imagery.
My favourite lines were
'I offered her my treasure in exchange for artificial love'
'I walk this earth a shadow of a man, beaten by lust
I am alone, ashamed and lacking any trust
In desperation, I sought my God in all the wrong places
Now I hide inside not daring to look at eyes or faces '
beautifull write.You may want to correct the coupe of spelling errors though.
Thankyou for entering
All the best
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Hi Bob...Michelle...
Please forgive me for jumping in the middle of a discussion that belongs to the two of you; I sort of feel like I’ve eavesdropped on a conversation, then have the nerve to offer my own opinion, lol However...I’ve read both your pieces with great interest and can honestly say the poems and your comments have given me more to think about than any other poem in a very, very long time...maybe ever. So rather than try to duplicate or outright copy a response to both of you, I thought I’d address you both at once...
I think my own beliefs lie somewhere between both of yours. Bob, I can agree with so much of what you’ve said, and yet there are gray areas to every black and white one. For example: “Any attempt at sexual fulfillment outside of the bound of a committed marital relationship will leave one empty and drained.” I might agree with that statement but for one thing: A marital relationship does NOT guarantee you will feel any less “empty and drained” after having sex.
Likewise, I do think it’s possible to have the kind of committed relationship outside of marriage that God is a part of, and that accomplishes the same things it would in marriage. (Although I believe it to be rare outside of marriage.) I have found, for myself, that everything depends on intent...motive...and whether a person is giving pleasure or only seeking their own. I can look back on my own sexual experiences and say exactly which ones were physically fulfilling only, which were jointly fulfilling on a deeper level, and which ones touched souls and, I believe, would have been God sanctioned. There has sadly been only one relationship that was like that for me...soul deep...but never did I feel we were anything less than brought together by God, and blessed with the ability to share on a level that (and this may sound strange, but...) felt like God was even in the bedroom with us. And yes, all that, despite the fact there were reasons we couldn’t get married.
I do agree that “Every sexual encounter takes a piece of our soul”, but even in marriage I think this is true...which is why it’s so important to give that piece of yourself only to someone who will cherish and care for it forever, and why it’s important we don’t take a piece unless we’re willing to give it that same care and love forever. Admittedly, it’s taken me almost 40 years of life to develop that kind of standard in my relationships. It’s probably a good thing to also note I’ve never been married, and yet I don’t think marriage would change my ideas on this.
A pastor once explained to me three levels of communication between couples. The first is very surface, sharing “How was your day at work?” kinds of things. The second is “gut level” where you share hopes, dreams, philosophies of life, etc. The third is the deepest and most intimate form of communication possible: love-making. And in order for that 3d level to be reached as it‘s meant to be, both people have to be able to first communicate on the surface and gut levels. Looking at sex as a form of communication...Wow...novel idea, huh?
But seriously...it brings me to believe true love, as described in the Bible, and as an action and not just a feeling, is at the foundation of everything...especially sex.
I was about to post this on your poem, Michelle...but it seems to have disappeared. In any case, I think you’ve both done a wonderful job with your poems and showing your respective beliefs. Point of view depends sooooooo much on personal experience, and because of that I can respect both your views and opinions. I believe, after reading, I’ll take a bit of enlightenment with me from the both of you. Thank you so much for sharing, and for giving me so much to think about!
s
~J.
P.S. My apologies for the novel, and if I’ve said too much, or jumped in the middle of something I shouldn’t have.
Feel free to delete my comment if you’d rather, no hard feelings on my part.
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I undeleted my poem now
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Hi J! I agree with what you have said. This conversation went on and basically what I ended with was, sex is a gift from God for two in love to share, cherish and honor in a committed relationship. In my experience I have had both extremes, tragic and beautiful, both not in marriage. Ideally, yes, it would be within marriage, but as you said that does neccessarily make it a loving act and if it is not in marriage make it ugly. I also don't believe it to be wrong to masterbate. Everything in moderation and with respect. I really like what you said about communication, that is so true.
Ultimately I think we all have to take our own experiences, beliefs and knowledge to decide how we walk with God and what keeps us from being close to him, as guilt and shame is also a sin that takes away our closeness.
I love reading your thoughts on this!
love ya!
Michelle
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Yes, I too am a Christian who struggles with lust. This was a very honest and humble poem, which shows your strength. My beliefs are somewhat differant, I won't get into that here. We all have to walk our walks with God, and decide what brings us close and what seperates us, so I respect your beliefs and your strength. Well written my friend.
blessings,
Michelle
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Hi Michelle,
Please read my response to this poem...it's for you also...would have posted it on your poem but looks like you removed it.
Love ands
~J.
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