Endless pain (pre-write)

As I'm laying helplessly under the covers of my bed,
I hear him coming up the stairs.
No-one but my Father comes through the door,
I prey for someone to rescue me, someone who cares.

Mama's crying on the lounge room floor,
Where he left her after one forceful hit.
He walks over to my bedside,
He knows the pain he causes but doesn't give a s**t.

The sound of his pants dropping to the floor,
Echos through my mind.
He grabbed my wrist and turned me over,
In the moonlight his teeth seem to shine.

While he's doing his heartless act,
I know this is something no daughter should go through.
I feel let down, as if im nothing,
This is something no Dad should be able to do.

When the job's done,
After he gets his things and leaves.
It's to my drawer I go,
And roll up my sleeves.

As I close my eyes,
I feel the coldness of my new best friend.
Crying as my internal pain runs down my arm,
I thought it'd only be once, but it won't ever end.

Cry myself into a deep sleep,
Only to be woked by chilling screams.
As im running down the stairs,
I hope to God that this isn't one of those bad dreams.

I find Mum standing infront of what looks like Dad,
Telling me to call an ambulance as she walks towards me.
I look over her shoulder to have a proper look,
Its Dad dangling from the ceiling that I can see.

Having called the ambulance, I went back to my room,
Staying awake hoping and wishing.
That this beautiful dream wouldn't end,
I knew Mum loved him but Dad is one person I won't be missing.

At the funeral, I didn't cry, I didn't smile either,
I wasn't sure what to feel.
All I know now is that the monster of my life is gone,
But I won't ever be able to heal.